Exams~

The trick to exams is...

Take it easy! Treat like a platform for you to see how much you actually learnt this term.

No need to get so stress up. Relax and take it easy. Have fun when doing the papers and you would realise that it's ain't that scary after all.

Results are just results. They are just there to show you how much you have learnt. If you think you did badly, then work harder next term.

Its not 'O' level or anything, so take it easy~~~

Trapped in my world

I'm trapped,

With no space to breathe

As stress crash down on me.


Trapped in my own world,

as reality wakes me

I could only find myself in a state of worry


Exams are coming

I'm restless

Yet defenceless


Telling myself that everything will be fine,

I know I'm just lying

there is no denying.


Can I get out of my own world?

Or will I be trapped inside?

With nowhere to hide.

My 15th Birthdae...

21st april of 2010 may seemed like an ordinary school-day for most of you, but for me, it is totally different be'cose it is my birthdae!!!

The moment I switched on my phone, it was instantly blasting with 'happy birthdae' messages and blessings from all my friends and relatives =)

( In order from the earliest, blessings I got from people through sms or blog's Cbox ) ,

1- Eugene ( 12.00 am ),

2- Seh Hian ( 12.00 am ),

3- Ryan ( 12.00 am ),

4- Isaac (12.02 am ),

5- Lander ( 3.50 am ),

6- Derek ( 5.36 am ),

7- Jarryl ( 6.21 am ),

8- Kia Yuen ( 6.33 am ),

9- Wilson ( 6.42 am ),

10- Crenshawn ( 6.50 am ),

11- Ferlyn ( 7.02 am ),

12- Aunt May ( 9.33 am ),

13- Mum ( 10.29 am ),

14- Fionn Sis ( 11.33 am ),

15- Jony ( 6.38 pm ),

16- Sis ( 11.23 pm ),

Thank you =)

I arrived at school at 7, went for a short PB meeting as the sec 4 prefects are stepping down. For Carpe Diem, we wasted the whole period in class discussing on home-coming, we are doing India btw >.>

Went for inves rehearsal till 11 am, had a short recess and went to wait at audi for my attachment, Bo Wen Sec. Honestly, all the prefects that came for the inves were all CMI. I had to chat with the prefects from Bo Wen sec till 12.45.

Brought them to the hall and inves started shortly.


I felt that it was pretty boring thou... But the happy thing is, I got promoted to senior prefect XD

Did a bit of homework in class after inves.

It was about 3.15 when me, Derek, You Hong, Jie Ying, Eugene, Crenshawn, Lander, Isaac, Joshua and Ryan made our way to Pizza Hut to celebrate my birthdae!

The meal was pretty fun. Jokes were constantly said, the usual 'targets' were all suan-ed, drinks were spilled as usual, and cheese ran out like it always do.

After the meal, I received the presents which were prepared for me. I seriously liked the presents very much. Thank You!!!

Went back home and rushed to Combined School's training in Ryan's mom's car. Finally, got the training jersey!!! One white and the other luminous orange. Gonna wear on saturday to show off =)

Went subway with Joshua, Jarryl and Ryan after the training. PT was hell.

After chatting and eating, we went separate ways, I took Mrt to Tampines then took 969 back home.

Was close to 11.45 when I reached home. After a short bath, I sat down and stared at the snsd clock lying on my table as it ticks pass 12 midnight. My birthdae was finally over.

Thou it was a rather hectic day for me, I enjoyed every single minute of it and it wouldn't be the same without my friends around. Thank You for making my 15th birthdae such an enjoyable one.


Below are the presents I received. Thank You people!


From Seh Hian,














He designed and drew out a the whole card by himself. He even drew out the chocolate mousse cake which I wanted for my birthdae. Thank You.

Seh Hian initially gave me a $30 dollar red packet but I gave it back to him and told him that it is the sincerity that counts, not the money. I believe that this present that he gave me, is definitely worth more than just $30...

"Without your kindness our team would be divided.
Without your passion winning is out of the question for us.
Without you our team cannot exist.
You taught me something new : How to give a good gift."


Birthdae Card from my beloved sis, telling me to work hard. I will!!!












Mom's red packet.














New wallet my aunt got for me.














From

Joshua,
Cren,
Eugene,
Jie Ying,
Lander,
Derek,








SNSD clock!!! One of my favourite present I got. I luv this present man.

You guys know me best!

Nike bag my sis got for me as my present.

Find it pretty cool.












Daily contact lens?

Lol, mom got it as another present for me.












Got promoted? Another gift ba.














SNSD poster Isaac got for me !














Card which the 7 ( Don't know the 7th guy ) got for me.













" You have been a great captain... You have been a great friend..." Cren

" Nice to have a budda like you." Derek

" Good luck for Combined Schools this year, cose, next year I'll be there so you won't and can't get in =D " Lander

"Always remember you as a great captain, teammate and friend ; ) " Joshua

" You are the best, Er Ge~" in chinese, Eugene


SNSD's "Oh!" album which Isaac got for me.

Luv it very much. Ty Isaac!












From Jarryl,

He got me this soft toy.

Super cute bear!

Haha, the card was retarded too,






" Life is great but reality is harsh. Darrell # 21, a.k.a, the guy who cant control my board pass # 21."

Dude, wassup with the "I love you"?

Sadden-ed...

Just had my birthdae party.

Wasn't even a little bit happy.

My mom had to spoil it all. Thanks alot...

I rushed home right after the league match against PSRC ( Won 10-5 ), thinking that I would not be nagged at for being late. Even thou I was early when I arrived home, I was still nagged at just be'cose she was in a bad mood.

I was in a rather good mood, did nothing to offend her but she had to scold me just be'cose she was angry with my dad. So freaking unreasonable. She went on scolding and scolding for like half an hour straight. Hello, what did I do?

When we were at Northpoint shopping for my birthdae present, no matter what I wanted to buy, she would say something like "So ugly" or " Doesn't fit you" . What does she know about the new trend? Just giving stupid comments...

Things that me and my sis think was nice, she will say it not nice. Anything I like, she would object me from buying it. All she wanted was a cheap ( *ignoring whether it was nice anot)present. No matter what I wanted, she did not allow. Hello, is it you that is choosing the present or is it me?

Most importantly, it is MY birthdae. And I do not get to choose my own birthdae cake... I chose a chocolate mousse and instead she chose a truffle.

Right before dinner, she had to nag and scold me. Totally spoilt my mood for dinner. I was already freaking irritated.

Thus, I did not want to take any photos since I was in a bad mood anyway. Then know what my mum said to my aunt?

" Help him celebrate still like that..."

HELLO! Wonder who pissed me off 1st...

Instead of feeling happy when the birthdae song was sang, I was helplessly holding back my tears, not be'cose I was happy, but be'cose I was very sad that I had such parents...

They never bother to care, they never wanted to care, they never tried to care.

I never needed my parents to support me in playing floorball but I only wanted them not to restrict me from playing floorball. Tell me whether it is unreasonable?

Never once did they encourage or show a slight bit of interest in me playing floorball. Bet they dun even noe I'm a forward on court...

Everytime I mention to them floorball related stuff, they just cut me off.

When I practise at home, all my mum will say is " Dun play at home, hear the sound want die already."

Something even more harsh, " Best dun talk la, dun like hear your voice."

They may think it is nothing but it totally hurt me deeply in the heart...

Why can't they show any concern for me?

Can't they be interested in anything I do?

Can't they care for me... Nothing that I do is ever right, other than studying.

O ya, they showed concern!

Wait. Sorry, they only know how to suspect... Questioning, not asking.

My dad has a car but he hardly fetch me to or from anywhere. I had to travel to every place by myself until I knew how to get to most parts of singapore by now. Maybe I SHOULD THANK HIM.

Parents? I swear I will never be like them in the future. I shall never be parents as failed as them. Cose I know the person that suffer most is the child.

I tried to be nice. It will be ok when their mood is good but once it is bad, everything goes on me.

Fuck. I tried and I give up.

I swear in the future, the will be no need for me to tell them anything about me unless they bother to ask and I will not care what they say anymore. I hate you guys. Go fuck yourself and die.

This is no longer a home but all is left is a house.

You forced me, I have no choice...

I'm on my own now.

No longer part of this family.

But at least, I have my friends...

Power of Nine...

They have 9, so do we.

*Taking Vocalist as Forwards and Lead Dancers as defenders.


- Tae Yeon ( 1st Lead Vocalist. Leader) / Darrell ( 1st Star Forward. The leader).

I’m not saying that I’m the star player among the forwards but as for Tae Yeon, she is the 1st Lead Vocalist in the team, being the leader at the same time, which I assume would be me for the time being. I will just have to take up the role of leading and guiding. At the same time, I will also have to improve to be one of the best player / member in the team, just like what Tae Yeon is doing now.

Honestly, to be a leader is not easy, taking up this role will mean a very great responsibility for me. I shall do my best and play my part to do everything I can but the rest is really up to you.


- Yoona ( 3rd Lead Dancer, Supporting Vocalist) / Jarryl ( 3rd Star Defender. Playmaker )


I decided to compare Jarryl with Yoona basically be’cose both of them are super cheerful. I stress again, I’m not saying Jarryl is lousier than Joshua but plainly be’cose that is Yoona’s role in the group. Yoona is very confident of herself and trust her ability, just like how Jarryl show his confidence in his gameplay. As a supporting Vocalist, Jarryl also take on the role of a playmaker like what he is already doing now.


- Yuri (2nd Lead Dancer, Supporting Vocalist) / Joshua (2nd Star Defender. Playmaker)

Joshua fits best with Yuri be’cose Yuri and Yoona are super close, like how Jarryl and Joshua is =) Not just that, Joshua is also identified for his ability to step up as the star player in the team, like how he is now, and at the same time, is able to act as the playmaker. Shining whenever he can, Joshua definitely is able to take the role as the 2nd star defender in the team. Plus, he is as easily cheered up by his mates like Yuri.


- Sunny (Supporting Vocalist) / Samuel ( Playermaker / Forward)

I chose Sunny for Samuel be’cose both starts with an ‘S’. Just joking but Sunny’s personality is rather fun yet easily irritated, just like how Samuel always behaves. Always there to bring up the team spirit or the atmosphere even at very tense moments. Always there to contribute to the team even when he might not be recognized for his efforts, how a supporting vocalist / playmaker always does.


-Jessica (2nd Lead Vocalist) / Crenshawn (2nd star Forward)

Although Jessica is my idol and I love her, I still have to stick to rules and give her to Crenshawn! Lucky lor you. I rather be Jessica than Tae Yeon…As I was saying, Crenshawn have shown his ability to step up to being one of the best forwards in the team. He is now on the top of the scoreboard ( Like I said, I dun mean literally it when I said I am the star forward ). He has shown the team his ability as a forward.

Plus, his character is rather similar to Jessica’s, being able to bring out the cold effect. Cren’s ‘suans’ and comments definitely is able to bring out that feel~ Like I always say, the group will not be close if they don’t quarrel occasionally. A player with such attitude is needed.


- Hyo Yeon ( 1st Lead Dancer, Supporting Vocalist) / Eugene ( Star Defender (Keeper) / Playmaker)

I believe the core of the defence lies with the keeper. I’m not saying Eugene is better than Joshua or Jarryl but what I hope to see soon is Eugene being the star in the defence. Eugene indeed has show his ability as a keeper. With him at the post, I never had to worry much. I see a lot of potential in him if you ask me.


- Seo Hyun (3rd Lead Vocalist) / Ryan ( 3rd star forward)

The baby of the team. Youngest / Smallest. The player that need most attention and concern. The only difference is that Seo Hyun doesn’t make that much noise =) Ryan has show his ability as a forward, creating many chances and doing smart plays in the game. Way to go. Both of them have a very nice character just that Ryan has a unique personality…


- Soo Young ( Supporting Vocalist) / Billy ( Playermaker / Defender)

They are actually the pillars of the team, supporting us from behind, allowing the star players to get all the glory while they stand in the back smiling. They are the ones that never complain even when they don’t get their chance on court/ stage to perform.


- Tiffany ( 4th Lead Vocalist) / Derek (Playmaker / Defender )

Does that mean Derek is a forward/ vocalist? The truth is, the only link that does not fit is this one. Maybe SNSD has preference for more forwards than defenders? As I said before, people like Derek will always be there for the team but will never grumble if his efforts are not recognized. The pillar may seem unimportant, but once it’s gone, everything will collapse.


This is the Power of Nine. It may all seem so coincidentally but the truth lies in front of you.

We are like them.

We can do it.

We can beat all the other teams to emerge as champions. We got the team, the spirit and most importanatly the players, the ultimate combination of the 9, all with different ability and role in the team.

Too slack~

Just flunked my math test 2day. Even forgot to hand in 1 whole piece of answer script...

Failed my A math test terribly too. Got 8 / 30.

Math, was suppose to be my strongest subject and now it actually becoming a burden to me.

Maybe its be'cose I'm slacking too much. My inability to complete my homework on time have cause me to accumulate my work and eventually causing me to be unable to catch up. Didn't even touch my 10 year series to practise and 3 questions from the 10 years series came up...

I think the only way one can be not afraid of exams or tests is through consistent hard work.

Paying attention in class. Clearing any doubt once he is confused.

Completing his work on time and handing them up.

Revising and doing his correction everytime he gets back his worksheet marked.

Doing the 10 year series once the topic is covered.

Only through this consistent hard work put in, then will he be able to handle any tests or exams with ease.

The only reason why we fear exams is be'cose we are not prepared for it.

I know I have been too slack. My triple science probation shall all depend on this upcoming exam. If I fail the probation, I dunno what the future will be for me. I like 3-4, and I dun wan to leave this class.

I know if I start working hard now, it might be a little late but it is better than not to start at all. Even if I do badly this term, at least I can tell myself I tried my best.

My mum was right, as a student, my role is to study and not floorball.

But I believe if I can balance both of them properly, I should have no problem.

Everybody's time is the same. It is only a matter of how people find the time and make the best use of it.

Too slack~ I must start working now. Mid year exam is only less than 2 weeks away.

Nites.

Congrats me~

Yea, became a senior prefect.

Only 14 were promoted.

Derek promoted as well.

Updating soon...

Winning feels good~~~

I arrived at around 6pm to watch the match before us. It was the Merahans against Nhac Trec. A very intense and exciting match I must say.

Nhac Trec was dominating in the 1st and 2nd period. OMG, I witnessed the small kid do the flip around thing behind the goalpost which I have been trying to master for years!!! Plus, he was probably only 8 or 9, and he could do it and I can’t. Ought to be ashamed. The amount of hard work he put in practising it paid off I must say.

Period 1 intensity was around 1.

Period 2, maybe around 1.5.

Nhac Tre was leading 5-2 at the start of the 3rd period. The Merahans stepped up the intensity to around 2. Nhac Tre was still hanging on quite well but let the Merahans have a few shot at goals, allowing the Merahans to build up their confidence to winning the game.

The Merahans kept pushing and stepped up the intensity to around 3.5. Nhac Tre had no chances of keeping possession and could only defend and hope that the game will end before they let in too many goals. Merahans kept scoring and were hitting the crossbar frequently, if not they would have taken the game. Nhac Tre was luckily to get in a goal due to a lapse in the defence due to over commitment of the Merahans defenders attacking.

The last period was unexceptionally long. The Merahans could brought the intensity to high 4. Nhac Tre could not even see the ball beinbg passes around. At the last few minutes, Merahans scored the equaliser. The most funny part was that after the guy scored, he slided on the floor to celebrate and then! He got a leg cramp!!! LOL~

What we could learn from this match was how the Merahans did not given up even when they were 3 goal behind. They were able to step up the intensity 4 times of what they were playing in the 1 st period.

If it was us, I believe that highest we could get is 2, maybe 2.5. There is no way we could play at 3 or 4. The pace was super fast and intense. If we could play like them, we will definitely be top 4. But can we train till we are like them? Hard I would say, at the pace we are training now.

After watching such an intense match, we were all very worked up for our match.

Period 1 ended 1-0, after Joshua scored a deflection which ended up into the goal. I could have scored 1 if not for some dirty underhand methods by one of their defenders. He pulled my arm when I was about to turn and shoot. Screw him, after that incident I was totally pissed and anybody in my way was bodi-ed and slashed in the legs >.< They couldn’t do anything to me =)

So I say, don’t mess with me >.<

Period 2 was much better and we were getting all the goals in. I scored a top corner free-hit dragshot btw, assisted by Ryan =)

Period 3 was much faster as TJC tried to come from behind. They were more physical and were more determined. They managed to score a luck backhand tap in, destroying our hopes of a clean sheet!

We managed to score a few too. Nice goal by Isaac assisted by Joshua =) When the match was close to ending, I told Mr Han to let me in a body the number 22 guy, who was super physical and rough. Fortunately for me, unfortunate for him thou, he was in the court. He was holding the ball at the boards. I step up to him. He gave me a small nudge. GG. I body him till he went out of the ring =) Mission accomplished.

Took revenge for Lander, he slashed Lander’s hand when Lander already had the ball… So bitchy, luckily I managed to take a little revenge @.@

End score was 8-1. 3 goals by Joshua ( Hat trick ), 2 by NJ, 1 by me, 1 by Isaac, 1 by Darius.

Normally, after you win a match, definitely you will feel a sense of satisfaction and joy right? But have you wonder where that joy came from? Was it that you did a great job on court, scored a few goals (Not targeted at Joshua btw >.< ) and feel great about it? Maybe for some of you.

But for me, it was the how the team played that made me happy.

We were able to stick to the plan. We held our defence tight and were very aggressive. TJ had no chance. Mr Han was still telling us this would be a close game but we prove him otherwise as we were able to stick to the plan.

It doesn’t really matter who scores. All the scorer did was to do the final touch. If it was a goal, it will be the team’s goal as everybody played a part which resulted in the goal, all the passing all the way from the defence to the opponents goal area, even the goalie which aided by throwing or passing the ball to his teammates.

We play as a team.

We lose as a team.

And win as a team.

We score as a team,

We concede as a team.

Nobody should be blamed when a goal is let in,

Cose~ We are a team.

Got me wrong...

Okay, maybe the way I expressed myself was a bit too emotional and you guys got the wrong message...

@ Joshua: Firstly, Ryan and I shall still be good friends and good teammates. I did not even dao him on saturday evening. So no worries Joshua, we are still friends...

@ Jarryl and Cren : Secondly, "fuck off" only applies when Ryan ask me to help him with his personality / attitude related problems, I tried to help but obviously I failed so I GIVE UP.... So Jarryl, "fuck off" was not needed, cose nothing of the related stuff were mentioned in the conversation between me and Ryan tat evening.

@ Seh Hian : Thirdly, Seh Hian, I know you mean well but seriously, like Crenshawn said, you dun really understand the whole situation.

Let's start from the start of this year ba. I started giving Ryan some "training". Basically 'suaning' him and make sure he doesn't whack me if I do that. After a few weeks he improved and now, he hardly ( I hope) whack people when he is 'suan-ed'.

But then, problems like 'mood swings' and his unique ( Let's not use weird ) personality are really difficult to change. I'm pissed not be'cose of his actions, but I more angry at the fact that he did not change even a bit after the training began. I started giving him some talks and even wrote a post trying to help him but obviously my efforts were wasted.

Whether he would want to change is really up to himself. Tat's his life and I had enough, I NOT gonna intefer with it anymore. And I obviously wouldn't be pissed at you for your concern, so relax dude.

explain to Ryan on what to do in the future? Nah, gave up.

@ Lander and Derek : I personally think tat ring ding dong is damn cool la... Seem like Lander is the one with the weird taste >.<

@ Derek and Seh Hian : Stop using chinese phrases pls. Feels weird.

Sometimes, it realy doesn't pay to be nice...

At first, I thought that helping him would not be as difficult as many people think.

I was wrong, very wrong after what I had witnessed today...

Instead of changing for the greater good, he was exactly how he was like last time.

Always pushing the blame on court, still throwing his tantrum around, commenting on people's skill as if he was the coach. He did not even THINK before he say, just splashing comments about people's skills, without even considering whether it will actually demoralise him or whether it was actually his own style of playing.

He thinks he is the best, he thinks he know everything, he thinks he have the right to comment on people's ability, without even considering whether that comment was needed.

Maybe he was trying to help, but I think many people would not like the way he phrase his words, " You cannot control like 'tat'... You need to do 'this' instead, train 'this' one better , the one you are doing now is useless de, don't waste time to learn 'tat' la..."

" Not like 'tat' shoot one, you want to shoot must shoot like 'this', don't try copy people's slapshot la, everybody have different style."

Who do he think he is, what give him the god damn right to actually comment on people's ability?

He will never consider whether his comment is even needed in the 1st place. When people tell him off for blasting his comments, he will just throw tantrum and say, "I trying to help only ma..."

Help? No thanks....

And anything mistakes on court would never be his, NEVER. He will be the very 1st one to push all the blame away. If you tell him off, he would, once again, throw his tantrum and act as if you were at fault.

On court, he will always tell you exactly to do, and will scream at you once you commit a mistake. As if he never committed mistakes before...

With any chances at goal, he will shoot or even shoot without any chances at goal. When there is a free-hit, he would be 1st to go there and take it with his 'slapshot' , when it was actually better to lay off the ball.

He is too selfish and too demanding on court. When he pass, he will pass those highballs into those very difficult to reach places and expect you to get it. If you don't, he will just 'sigh' and look as if it was your inability to get the ball.

And if his role was to play forward, he would adjust to play in the middle, where he is more comfortable at and make Darius play as forward. Can't he just stick to the plan!!!

If you miss a shot where you can actually pass to him, he will give you a lot of bullshit and tell you off. Selfish? Wonder who is more selfish on court...


I thought I could change him. I was wrong. Maybe, it is really difficult or even impossible to change one's personality.

All my time and effort trying to change him is all wasted. He didn't even change a little bit.

Maybe Eugene and Crenshawn were right, he is hopeless.

From now on, NONE of his business shall concern me again. I give up. It really doesn't pay to be nice.

Next time, when he come and bother me, I would just say, " FUCK OFF! "

Cherishing...

Me and my sis when we were young...

Many of you may not believe me, but I believe the greatest blessing god have given me is my sister.

My sister has really been very nice to me ever since I was small. Always taking care of me, always protecting me, always doting on me...

-During the recent December holidays, my sis insisted on giving me math tuition. but I did not want it, I ignored her when she wanted to teach me. I even gave her attitude.

She did not give up, she made me study and do my homework.

In the end, the tuition helped me a great deal as the I missed a lot of lessons due to the matches.

-After I transferred to 3-4, to help me pass my triple science probation, she wanted to give me tuition for my three sciences and maths.

She was even willing to reward $50 a month if I attended her tuition. She was willing to reject a $50 per hour home tuition opportunity, just in order to teach me.

But I did not appreciate it, I hardly attended any of her tuition's.

- Recently, after she got her pay, she gave me $50 dollars. Just gave me to spend for no apparent reason. Tell me, where can you find a sister like that?

But I rejected it. In the end, we came to a conclusion that the $50 shall be money for my birthday present.

- Last year, right before the EOY, I was still slacking and playing. I was not even serious for the exams. But my sis once again saved me, she talked me out and even cried tat night. She cried be'cose she felt tat her brother had totally changed into other person...

After tat night, I woke up from my self-illusion-ed world, and realised what had actually happened to myself. Indeed, I had changed.

I immediately start working hard for EOY. Luckily, it wasn't too late, I got a decent result in the end. I could not imagine what would happen if not for my sis...

-No matter when I asked her questions related to studies, even when she is watching television, she will definitely help me, no matter how long it might take her...

She was always there when I needed her.

She was always willing to reach to her hand when I'm in need.

She was aways there to care and to dote on me.

I seriously cherish this sister of mine.

I promise myself, in the future, when my sis needs me, I will be there, definitely...

Sometimes in life, we should actually cherish what we already have, instead of working towards them.

Take a look around you, maybe what you were actually looking for all along, is already there.

Cherish what you have. Appreciate it. We should never take the things around us for granted. You may find your parents very irritating, but when they are actually gone, then will you realise how much you need them, how much you actually cherish them.

As the saying goes, "Dun wait till you lose something then start learning to cherish it..."

Take a look around you NOW.

Your cozy bed, your wardrobe of clothes and your computer as well.

All of these things you have taken them for granted. Until the day when they are actually taken away from you, then will you realise how precious they are to you. It should be time for you to start cherishing everything around you.

Your family, your friends and everything you have.

We all grew up in a safe and well-protected society and were all doted by our parents.

Unlike millions of unfortunate children out there in the world, their daily objective is to stay alive, seek water, food and shelter. Many failed and millions die every year.

What I hope to bring across to everybody is that we should cherish what we have, and appreciate them. Let's not wait till we lose them then start cherishing them, be'cose it will be too late already...

Nites...