30/6/10

Wednesday 30/6/10

Haiz, here I am trapped in my room with my computer. By right, at this juncture, I should be training at Coral Sec, figuring out how the other combined schools players execute all their cool moves. But it is better to be safe than sorry, better not strain my ligament or it might just break. Should be back on court by Saturday, I hope.

I'm currently still able to cope with both my studies and floorball. Hopefully I can keep up this good work and not accumulate any of my work.

I’ve read some of your blogs. I just like to clarify something here. Firstly, I did not make the team hold in pumping position because I want to show my authority as captain. What I did was just out of necessity; anybody else in my position would have done that too.

Secondly, doesn’t mean that when I don’t put my weights around you can do whatever you want. I really don’t like to pump or punish my fellow teammates and friends, but yesterday’s issue was totally out of hand, only through punishment then will everybody realise the severity of the incident. Plus, this wasn’t the first time, so I really had to do something to solve this problem. Sorry people!

Give me a break. Get out of my world. I tried to forget you but failed.

To say or not to say?

Does it make a difference anw?

We will never be together either way...

Life is a mystery...

There’s two side of me. The usual cheerful and fun-loving side of me and the other whom seldom have yet to seen before, the cold and quiet side of me…

I will live my life the normal way when I’m in the cheerful state of mind but once I switch to the darker side of me, things in my mind start to take a twist and an overwhelming state of coolness will settle down in my body. I seriously dunno how this whole thing works but I will feel a very strong sense of determination to achieve what I want. For example, I will feel the sudden burst to train very hard and that time, I trained a totally of 3 hours at my void deck…

If only I can hold on to this kind of determination to succeed throughout the year, instead of feeling it for only a few minutes… How can I hold on to it?If only I knew the answer...


28th June, Monday

School have finally reopened. The june holidays was over in an blink of an eye. Hiaz, life gets on. Had the usual boring lessons with teachers giving us a whole pile of homework. Made an improvement today by paying more attention in class, I really benefited more but unfortunately, some teachers are still talking crap all day long and didn’t really teach much.

After school, Cren, Derek, Eugene, Ryan and I went to pizza hut for lunch. Tried to convince Eugene to dance but didn’t really manage to change his mind.

Honestly, I don’t blame Eugene. I honestly don’t blame anybody for not dancing. Cose~ I can’t make everybody’s thinking to be alike. Things that I like, people might not like. Personally, I love dancing and I intend to learn some real dancing in the near future, but for some, they don’t intend to do so, so there is no reason I should force them to dance.


A team dance will really benefit us if we can do it well thou. Coordination, gracefulness, confidence, getting into music like how we get into the game, the ability to carry out what was taught, teamwork, flexibility in game and in dancing as well; there are so many things that comes with a single dance. The kind of unity and belonging to the team will be overwhelming, but that will happen if only we can carry out the whole dance successfully.

Most importantly, I want to show everybody that floorballers can do something else other than to play floorball only.

Life is great but reality is harsh. Not everything in life will go in your favour. I just have to do it with 7 men then.

I really want to excel in both my studies and sports. I really need to practice good time management and jungle my time well. I really need to learn to prioritise and do the important things instead of those leisure activities that should only be done during free time. Today, I wasted close to 2 hours just for lunch. Seriously, it is time I learn to manage my time and do things with a plan in mind at all times. Most importantly, put it into action. No delay, once I delay it, god knows when I will finish it.

Darrell Hwaiting! It’s all in the mind~

23/6/10 t0 27/6/10

23/6/10 to 27/6/10 Wednesday to Sunday

Feeling pretty down at the moment. Computer got infected by virus!!! Luckily I managed to borrow a laptop from my cousin or you guys are gonna be deprived of some very interesting post your favourite blogger~

-Wednesday 23/6/10

Woke up late, combined my breakfast and lunch together and went off to Combined Schools' training in the heavy rain. Really felt like staying in my cozy and warm bed and hide in my blanket. Singapore Schools? Feels really nice, but the extra commitments and effort we have to put in is also much more.

While you guys stay at home and play dota, I had to run through the rain and attend training. While you guys are fooling around and slacking during training, we are working hard just in order to improve our skills. We have worked towards where we are today, we should take nothing for granted...


-Thursday

Captain? Once again, it sounds good right? The extra commitments and effort put in are all not recognised only. While you guys play dota, I was nearly dying, trying to learn 'bonamana' the night before. I still had to come up with a speech to convince people to dance and beg people to give me support. Spend like one whole day trying to convince Ryan that the dance will be a success.

As planned, the dance session started right after training. After a short persuasion speech by me, I was still pretty disappointed as many of them still left. This time round, I really give up on them. All I wanted them to do was to give it a try. Yet, they didn't even try at all. Showed totally no interest in team affairs. If they were in a rush, at least they could be like Billy. Billy actually made an effort to ask me when is the next dance session. At least he showed some interest unlike the rest. But what enlighten me the most was that some Sec 2s stayed behind!!!

Spent close to 30 minutes trying to entertain the whole group which seem so restless and bored. Had to make a fool of myself just in order to lighten the mood~ And finally, I persuaded them to dance. And in the end, it was a great success!!! It's like a dream come true! Everyone was like super eager to learn the whole dance. Btw, I have completed the entire choreography for the dance!!! I was like super happy when the dance became a success. Could almost feel the strong sense of belonging and unity between us. Wohoo, CHS floorball 2010 'B' div boys have left a mark in history. If this group of us remain just as united, Top '4' is totally possible. All we need to do is to train hard from now on!


-Friday

Went out with my 2-4 buddas! Didn't do much but we really enjoyed ourselves. Lunch at subway, basketball and slacking at coffee shop? Haha, was a great day of slacking anw~


-Saturday

Had a friendly against Argonnauts. Won 9-4? Somewhere there. I was super happy! I played so much better than how I did in training on wednesday. Even assisted a goal=) Wasn't the best of passes but still it was an assist! I felt that I have almost overcome my lack of confidence with the ball. Maybe it's be'cose the opponents are weaker but most importantly, the real battle is in the mind. Confidence, other than skills, the rest will be in the mind, whether I dare to do it. Really need to thank Cren for saying this " Don't worry, you got nothing to lose." Yea, I was too afraid that I will lose the ball and I lost it even faster eventually. I have to regain back my skills, I have to play like how I played in Div 4 when I was in top form.

Watched the South Korea game against Uraguay. They lost, but they played really well. They ran hard and played their best. At the 70th minute mark, the Uraguay's players where all tired and lost their focus while the South Korea's players were still running hard and trying their very best to win back the ball. Although they lost, but the practically dominated the whole of the 2nd period. Fitness, that was the key. Once the South Korea's players fell, they immediately got up. Once they lose the ball, they try to win it back. When the ball was 50-50, they would sprint their guts out just to win the ball.

Mr Han, if you are reading this, I beg you, go down harder on us. Make our physical training even more intense. "Things that doesn't kill you, trains you..."

Since we can't beat other schools with skills and techniques, we shall beat them physically. The reason why we couldn't win for the past 2 years, one major reason was our fitness. We were lazy, we slacked during PT. In the end, we lost out on court physically. Fitness is crucial, if we are tired, we will lose concentration and thus lose out. If a ball is 50-50, we can beat the opponent if we are faster and stronger. If we fail to track back just because we are too tired, all we can blame is ourselves, as we are not fit enough.


-Sunday

Went out with my family, went for lunch and went to the museum. Was pretty fun. Had a lousy haircut AND the geo project which I spent 2 hours doing is gone. Fuck.

22/6/10

22/6/10 Tuesday

In an blink of an eye, we are close to the end of our june holidays. Time really files huh?

Still rushing my homework, haven started revision at all... Haiz.

Btw, I've decided to give up learning gliding. It's seriously to difficult to learn. May take me few years if I want to do it well? Forget it... Think I will just do left-right since I have been doing it for quite a while...

Probably I'm just slightly off form, don't think I should pick up gliding now just be'cose I can't dribble. After all, it's Div 1. Only the pros can dribble there~

Still gonna work hard to improve. Shooting is getting closer to perfection, just need work on the cosistency~ And work on control and dribbling.

Darrell! Fighting!

One more thing, team dance!!! Those that are reading this blog should be all my good friends right? I'm sure you will support me right?

Let's do it. I'm already practising the dance steps. Rather difficult but can be done. Don't you think it will be very cool to dance as a team?

Nothing more to write... Time to go practise the dance.

Nites...

20/6/2010

20/6/2010, Sunday.

Woke up late and took close to an hour to crawl out of my cozy bed. I couldn't bring myself to get up, I just wanted to lay there for the an eternity...2 games in one day certainly took the toll on me, but I eventually got up.

Did a bit of homework before going for the game against NUS Nemesis at 3.30pm.

Btw, congrats to Ryan and Jarryl for scoring 1 goal each in our 8-2 win against NTU Hurricanes.

Warm-up and stretching was done as usual. As the coach announced the players that were going to play for today, I wasn't even surprised that I had to sit out for this game. After yesterday's game, I was already pretty sure that my performance wasn't impressive at all.

During yesterday's game against Hurricanes, I hardly pose a threat to the opponent. Unlike the other forwards, they were all very dangerous and look likely to score when the opportunity arises.

All I did for the game was to pressure the opponents. There was nothing else I could do. I had a chance on goal and I shot right at the keeper... Line 2 played well, without me contributing much anyway. I felt so useless for once...

That night, I reflected deeply on what went wrong. I realise that I wasn't really comfortable with the ball. If I had an option to reset or dribble, I would reset. Sometimes, I even feel that it would be better if they don't pass the ball to me. I wasn't confident with myself. When I have the ball, there was nothing much I could do. I don't even pose a threat to the opponent at all...

Best in catholic high? Look like I'm the worst among the 4 of us for now.

Jarryl as usual, is dangerous and fast.
Joshua is pretty impressive with his 'cross dribbling or watever you call it', he could pretty easily dribble past 1 or even 2 players.
Ryan is getting much better and his distribution of the ball is rather good.

Me? Other than shooting, there is nothing much I can say about myself. Furthermore, my shots are not consistent.

Back to the game, we lost narrowly by a goal, with the game ending 4-5 to the opponent's favour. Ryan had a close chance of scoring the winning goal but it hit the post. Many argued that the ball hit the inner post but the referee thought otherwise. Felt pretty sad for him but it's all over anyway.

Took Mr Han's car and he dropped me off at Bishan. Yes, he got a car now... Not a bike anymore... He just bought it last week, so I presume I'm one of his first few passengers =)

In Mr Han's car...

It was only 6 when I reached home. So, I grabbed my stick and went to my void deck to train since I wasn't really tired as I didn't play during the game.

The void deck that I do my individual training...

Knowing that I have to work on being dangerous, a threat to the opponent, I decided to start on dribbling. Not giving myself anytime to think, I instantly took the ball and dribble pass an imaginary defender. Guess what did I do?

Wasn't left-right.
Wasn't a spin-a-round.

It was gliding~~

Surprising you might find it but I realised that I had unconsciously started gliding until it became my most comfortable move I would execute when I'm dribbling.

So, I decided to work on gliding. After 1 one hour or so, I more or less mastered the art of gliding. Don't laugh, but I more or less know how JB does his moves. I learnt 3 of them, I could execute 1 quite smoothly, can execute the 2nd one a little, but can hardly do the 3rd one. Hehe, after I understand how gliding work, all those moves that JB looked rather okay for once.

But of course, I can't do it as well as he does it. There is many things I will need to work on if I want to use gliding well. I will work hard!!!

Hopefully gliding can make me more dangerous now. Since my left-right now is pretty okay, it should be time I work on some dribbling=)

Although I might be last among the 4 right now, but I believe I will get back up in no time=) I'm the MVP remember=)

I seriously enjoy this competition among the 4 of us right now. There is no rivalry but competitiveness that will push us to do better. I will work hard and get back in the race!!!

Nites!!!

Changing your life~ Right Now.

I know that my blog is mainly about inspirational posts, trying to motivate all my readers to do well in all aspects in their lives. I'm not sure whether it helped but I tried. Some may have liked it and some may not. Anyway, this post shall be my last inspirational post.

I knew all the while I wrote alot on life principles and values, but I doubt any of them got into your brains. This post will be different, because this time, it wouldn't be plainly words alone, it's about my life. Although this post may be abit personal, but I'm willing to let my readers into my world for once, if I'm able to motivate you for the last time.

Life is great but reality is harsh.

I believe by now all my readers should already be familiar with this phrase. Indeed, life is great. Think about all the luxuries you are having now. Computers, hand phones, your very own bedroom. These are all the little things that many other children in other countries might not be able have. But all these luxuries come with a price, money is needed in order for you to obtain them. You should know by now, in such a competitive society where meritocracy is present, only the hardworking and talented people will be able to enjoy such luxuries. Luxuries and glory which all people yearn for day and night. Only the successful people can walk with their heads up as commoners stand from a distance and watch in awe. I don't want to be a loser.

Life is short, live without regrets.

I want to be successful, I want to be a winner. I want to be admired and not to admire people. I want to be the best in all aspects of my life. I don't want to wait till I'm old and start regretting why I did not work harder when I was younger. It will be too late then.

I decided. It's time i make a change to my life. The overseas immersion programme started me thinking about my current life. Captain, senior prefect, combined school player. On the surface, it may look good, it may seem that my life right now is perfect, having almost everything that I want. But I asked myself " Is that all that I want?"

You may say that I'm greedy, you may say that I should cherish what I already have, but isn't life all about progressing to the next level in that aspect of our lives? It is the same as gaming, we all want to level up, this applies for our lives as well. Tell me, who doesn't want to be the best in all aspects of their lives?

I worked hard to achieve what I am today. I'm not going to stop here. I'm going to ace every single aspect of my life. I want to be successful, I want to be a winner.

All my previous posts about my new resolution is all crap. This time round will be the real one, the one that I will carry out.

The book " Excel in sports and studies" which I borrowed from Ryan gave me the main guideline of how I should go about working on my resolution.

The very 1st step is to know yourself. Know your weakness and strengths. Be confident of your ability in your area of strength and work on your weakness. I took 20 minutes for me to list 20 strength and weakness I got. In this period, I reflected very deeply and found out that I'm far from what I hope to achieve in the future.

Next, setting goals.

Only by visualising our future, then can we progress towards it...

My ambition is very simple, and that is to ace my studies and sports. what I hope to achieve is not impossible, it's whether I want to put in the hard work.

In the long term, I wish to get into NUS university with straight A's for my 'A' level and to be a national floorballer.

In the intermediate term, I aim to get straight A's for my 'O' levels and emerge as the best player in combined schools.

In the short term, my aim is to get straight A's for my EOY and to be the best floorballer in Catholic High.

All of these, will be what I will be aiming for in the future. I will work towards it. I believe I can do it. I want to be a successful person.


In order for me to achieve all of this without a plan in mind is impossible. I have to know what I'm doing.

Keeping the 3 'P's in mind. Plan, prioritise, put into action.

Planning. In order for the task to be done quickly and efficiently, planning should never be compromised. I have to plan what I'm doing for this month, this week, today, the next hour and for the next couple of minutes as well. Only through planning then will time and effort be saved. I have to be clear of what I'm doing. Time wait for no man. We all have 24 hours, how efficient a person can be all depends on his planning and organising.

Prioritise. At all times, we have to know what is important and what is urgent. Urgent things should be done asap, such as visiting the toilet or helping your parents with some housework. Important things are such as your homework and your training. Do the urgent things first and quickly go back and continue with your important things. Quickly visit the toilet and resume training. Hurry finish your housework and get on with your studying.

Other then that, we should know when to play and relax, and when to work hard and focus. We should know how to prioritise our tasks in order for us to complete what we are suppose to do. Without prioritising, our lives will be in a mess.

Putting into action. Even if we plan very well and finish prioritising our tasks, if we don't carry it out it will be as good as nothing. Do it! A plan without action is just a dream. Stop dreaming and start working. And when we are doing a task, we should always keep in mind what is the purpose of it and focus and not be distracted.

In order for us to carry out these 3 'P's, it is important to note that only a healthy and fit person is able to carry out this 3 'P's. After I returned from abroad, I fell ill for closely to a week. I could not train or study. Furthermore, falling ill isn't something that you will enjoy. It is best to stay healthy and fit.

1) Have a healthy diet. From now on, I'm going to cut down on junk food and soft drinks if possible. I will also drink more water. It is too late to drink water if you are feeling thirsty. Drink water regularly. A good way to check if you drank enough is to check the colour of your urine. It should not be yellowish, it should colourless.

2) Rest. have enough rest time. Sleep at least 8 hours a day. It will be best to sleep before 11pm as that is the time our cells start remaking. Have short naps if you are tired, around 15-20 minutes will do, cause if the nap is too long, it will make you even more tired.

3) Train properly. Stretch and warm up before every training to prevent injuries and remember to warm down after every training session or it will take you longer to recover from fatigue.


Having goals, coming up with a plan to achieve these goals, maintaining a healthy body to work towards these goals, one other important factor is the attitude.


Our attitude should always be positive. It is okay to feel sad but it is not acceptable to feel negative. Being sad is different from being negative. No matter how sad you may feel, you should not feel negative. Always keep a positive outlook.

Things might not look like what it is if you look at it again. Sometimes it is always good to look at things from a different angle cause things might not be as complicated as it looks.

-Failure. There will definitely be failures in our journey towards success. What we should do is to take failure as a stepping stone towards success. Take it as a lesson which teaches us not to commit the same mistake again instead of viewing it as a failure.

-Fear. Never let fear affect your mindset. Fear does nothing good to you other then scaring you and affecting your performance. Don't be nervous for your exams, don't be nervous before the game. Be confident of your ability, remain calm. It will be better this way.

-Know what you are doing at all times. Know the purpose of the task and do it with the right attitude. When you are running, know that you are training your endurance and stamina, so never slow down or stop, because it will only destroy your purpose of the training. When you are studying, know that doing your work is also a from of revising, take homework as revision instead of viewing them as workloads. Remember, the future is in your hands, you decide how you want it to be, you decide what you want to do.


The top '10' things to change.

1) Self control, do not be too easily affected by your peers.
2) Self discipline, do what is right rather than what is tempting.
3) Study harder. Pay more attention in class and practise more.
4) Change my attitude towards my parents and peers. Be less rebellious and kp.
5) Determination. Don't just dream, do it and don't give up so easily.
6) Don't be distracted and affected by people too much.
7) Learn to save $, ain't easy to earn them.
8) Cut down on junk food and soft drinks. Maintain a healthy diet.
9) Work on my floorball basics first before proceeding on to other aspects.
10) Have confidence with the ball, remain calm.


Reflection:

I know that this path that I'm going to take will not be an easy one. But if something can be so easily achieved what will be the point in getting it? Along the way, there will bound to be obstacles and distractions to stop me, but I believe I can overcome all of them and eventually reach my final goal. Along this journey, may I learn and change myself into a better person, cutting down on my flaws and have more strengths as a person. I believe that I have the determination and will-power to last through this whole journey, I must succeed. I know that I may need to give up on certain leisure time and entertainment but I'm willing to give up on all of these in order to achieve what I set out to achieve. I want to enjoy the glorious days in primary school where I aced my studies and sports. I want to be a winner. i want people to look up on me. I want to be the best in all aspects of my life. Shall this determination path me my way to success. Nobody wants to be a loser, that person shall not be me. I had enough of being brought down by my parents because of my poor results. I want to show them that I can do it, I want to show them that my floorball skills are worthy of their attention. No matter how tired I may be, how lousy I can feel at that moment, I will not give up. It is time I show my ability to everyone... Cose it's now or never...

~Darrell.


My dear readers, the future is in your hands.You decide what your future becomes. All I can do is to motivate you, the rest is all up to you. It's now or never.

It's time you wake up.
It's time you show what you are capable of to everybody.
It's showtime.

To be

I'm going>>>

To be nice to people,
to develop a charming and likeable character.

To have secrets,
but not too many.

To learning to relax,
without neglecting my work.

To stare at girls,
and to make them stare back at me.

To be successful,
yet cheerful.

To be cool,
but not too quiet.

To know who I'm really am...

My new resolution

It’s about time I start carrying out my new resolution. Before the trip, I mentioned about it to you guys. My real aim of the trip, other than having fun, will be to find out more about myself, about what I want in life and how I’m going to achieve them.

I’ve came to realize that many things aren’t what I actually thought it would be. My perspective of life, change, totally.

Love ain’t sweet, it’s painful.
Friend? Take off that mask first…
Jealousy, self-centered-ness, selfishness. I’ve seen it all.
Cherish what you have, cose many else don’t have it.
Family, they are the one you can trust best.
Success? It all depends on how you are willing to work towards it.

Initially, I wanted to carry out a totally harsh plan, to train myself to have self-discipline and to work towards success. It includes cutting down time spent with friends, stopping all sorts of recreational activities and spending all my free time on studies and floorball. Then I asked myself, do I need to torture myself like that? No way!

I asked Derek," What will you do if I change totally?"

His answer? "You can't change totally. It will not be that easy to change your personality."


Below is the new and edited version of my new resolution!

1. Place equal importance to studies and floorball.


2. How I will succeed depends on how much I’m willing to work towards it.

3. Some people aren’t what they seem to be.


4. Love my family. Cherish them when they are still around, don’t wait till it’s too late.

5. Never give up! Hope is not lost.


6. Cherish everything I have! Cose many others don’t have it.

7. Cut down of junk food and fast food! Sleep at 11 latest! Drink more water! Stay healthy cose it sucks to be unwell.


8. Spend money wisely, ain’t easy to earn them. (Some people still own me $... You know who you are!!!)

9. Learn not to say everything you know, learn not to do everything without thinking twice. Some things are not meant to be said, some things are not meant to be done.


10. Love? It’s painful and short.

11. Time to develop a charming and nice personality. I will cut down on the ‘suans’. Sorry Ryan!!! I’m serious.


12. Stop gaming. It’s addictive and time consuming! Spend time wisely!

I'm going to stick to my principles and my new resolution. I'm going to achieve what I set out to achieve! I can succeed, I will succeed, I must succeed...

U nvr Know

" I haven really show what I'm really capable of yet. Its just like the tip of the iceberg..." Hyo Yeon.

Really liked what she said. Haven show her true potential to everybody.

People, give me time. I will show you true floorball.

Gearing up~

Aimless

Really don't feel like posting about the trip. All in all, the trip was fun.

Right now, all I feel like doing is to slack~

Watch soccer (got mio TV), surf the net, watch drama series, play psp, sleep~

But I can't. I got a whole pile of homework and undone work waiting for me, plus, I have to catch up with the rest after almost 3 weeks without floorball. The touch and feel of the stick, all gone... When I entered the ring for warm-up before our friendly against RP, I couldn't even do a left-right...

So many things to do yet all I want to do is to slack away~