Saturday, May 22, 2010

Give me a break.

Sorry for not posting for close to a week. Had been really busy, I swear.


Monday - Had combined schools training from 7 – 10 pm.

Tuesday - School training.

Wednesday - Friendly against West Wing ( Div 2). Won 10-5

Thursday - School training.

Friday - Sports Day and friendly against Hitman ( Div 1). Lost 3 - 7?

Think you can see that my schedule pretty packed right? By right, I should be going for school training this Saturday and will be having a game on Sunday against Skools Innebandy. That would mean a whole week of floorball.

I’m really very tired now. Tired of school. Tired of floorball, even tired of living as well. Every morning when I am about to crawl out of bed, I would ask myself, what’s the point of living? Why am I not doing what feel like doing instead? Reality is harsh. I know that we have to work hard to our goals if we want to achieve them…

“Goals are not achieved overnight, it takes time… “

I’m so tired now. I need a break from floorball and my studies. I need time to think about what I actually want in life and how I should set about achieving them. Look at Jarryl. He is so damn good in floorball and his studies. He is also on good terms with his parents. How many of us can be like him? Sometimes, I really wonder how he is able to balance his work and his floorball…

Truth is, we all have equal time. It is how we manage our time and how we prioritise things. But how do we do it? That is what I’m going to figure out over the next 11 days…

For the next 11 days I’m really going to let myself go. I’m really going to enjoy myself. The main aim of my trip this time is to give myself time to rest and to THINK. Think about what is my priorities in life right now and how am I going to work towards them.

I really need this time to organise myself and prepare myself for the upcoming challenges I will be facing. I need this time to think about what I actually really want in life. I need to rest, I’m very tired of my life right now. I really hate sleep at 1 am and waking up at 6 am and going for training almost every day. Give me a break.

I’m really going to let myself go and enjoy the trip totally. But once I’m back, with my new resolutions, things are going to change. I’m really going to set out to achieve what I want. I will succeed, I shall succeed, and, I must succeed.

Things are really going to be different...

SNSD and 2 PM (Cabi Song)

WOW.

H.O.T.

Must watch... Ty Ryan for making me unable to sleep for 3 nights...


Reality and illusions

Reality and illusions. Our life surrounds around these 2 things. Read on…

Normally, Mr Han will excuse us from training if we had combined school training the night before. On tuesday, Jarryl, Ryan and I turned up for school training. On thursday, only Jarryl and I turned up for school training.

I don't really blame Joshua for not coming as combined schools’ training is rather tough and vigorous. Ending at 10 pm everytime, after eating dinner and travelling from Pasir Ris back home, it will be way past midnight. Getting up the next morning and telling yourself “I will work hard for training today”, is ain’t easy.

Every time after combined schools training, by the time I arrive home it will be close to 12 midnight and will only get to sleep at 12.30. The next day, even though how lethargic I was, I will still go for training. I’m not sure what gives me the drive to work hard. Maybe it is my determination to improve or maybe that floorball is my passion. I’m not sure but I enjoy training and love to see myself improving.

But I realised something. I came to realise how Jarryl improve so quickly to establish himself as a key player in the team. It is through his hard work.

Jarryl only played floorball for around 1 year plus and I dare say he is even better than me. Honestly, when did you even see Jarryl slacking during training? He will always be running during physical training, doing the 40 kg bench press during gym and putting his 100% during court.

Do talents appear overnight? I believe it is through hard work. It is through all the little extra effort that he puts into training that shape him into the player he have became today. What you do during training reflects on what kind of player you are on court. It is as simple as that.

Last year, I slacked during gym and circuit. Now, I have to suffer the consequences of having poor fitness during games. But I put in a lot of effort on my skills. I trained by myself and gave my best in every court training, that’s why I’m slightly better in terms of skill. I will normally practise for at least 10 minutes every day and the longest time I trained alone was 3 hours. And all this training reflects on what kind of player I have became.

Sometimes, after shooting, people will walk up to me and say “ How you shoot so hard one?”. My reply “ Hard meh?”

I dunno, maybe it was really quite hard, but for me, it is still far from the kind of shot power I want to achieve. Maybe it is this kind of determination to achieve perfection that gave me to will to continue working hard. Some may say that I’m good, but I know I’m not. I will never be able to accept the fact that I’m good until I actually feel that I’m good.

When we played against Hitman this Friday, I noticed a few players smiling when they played. At first I thought that they were crazy but I realised that the smile came from their passion for the sport. They are actually enjoying every single minute of their playing time. Sometimes in sports, winning ain’t everything. We play because we enjoy the sport and not be’cose we want to win the sport but reality is harsh, players that don’t play to win are usually not very much appreciated in the team.

Nowadays, we are often trapped in a world of reality and illusions. We can bluff ourselves and ignore the fact that we suck in floorball by saying that I enjoy the sport and do not play to win but in reality, no players play to lose.

We can bluff ourselves and believe that we are good when people praise us but this is only an illusion which we use to bluff ourselves. Deep down under, you know it, you ain’t that good yet.

We can say that we are combined school players and that we are superior and better than the rest of the team but we know that we are not the best yet. If we tell ourselves that we are good, we are only bluffing ourselves.

I can tell people that since I’m a combined school player, I can easily DSA and need not study so hard but reality is harsh, studies are equally as important. Floorball will not get me anywhere far in life, studying and getting the university certificate is the only way to get a better living in the future.

Furthermore, I know that I’m ain’t that good in floorball. I’m far from what I hope to achieve. When my parents told me to study more and play less floorball, I know they are right. Studies is far more important than floorball if I were to want to have a better living in the future. But I kept telling myself and bluffing myself with the illusion that floorball is my passion, life is short, and I should do what I enjoy instead.

Let not lie to ourselves anymore, we have to accept reality. But at times, we should also lie to ourselves and cover up harsh reality with illusions, being positive.

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Welcome to my world...

Welcome to my world ( Quoted from Eugene).

My world, my music. K-POP.

Like it anot, accept it, that's me =)

My top '20' favourite K-POP songs.



1) SS501 - U r Man

2) BEAST (B2ST) Take Care of My Girlfriend (Say No)

3) ZE:A - All Day Long

4) Sunny - 이제서야 [Finally Now]

5) SNSD - ☆★☆(Star Star Star)

6) BEAST/B2ST - Bad Girl

7) Beast / B2ST - Easy

8) Magic - Secret

9) SNSD - Oh

10) SNSD - Run Devil Run

11) 4 Minute - Muzik

12) Kara - Lupin

13) SNSD - Tears

14) SNSD - Complete

15) SNSD - Beginning

16) SNSD - Dear Mom

17) SNSD - 뻔&Fun (Sweet Talking Baby)

18) T-ara - I Go Crazy Because Of You

19) 4 Minute - What A Girl Wants

20) SNSD - Gee

Nites... Enjoy~

Judging from the chart, you can see why I'm supporting SNSD~

Friday, May 14, 2010

Taking things easy~

Why bother taking things so hard? In the end, you will only find yourself in a state of depression and unhappiness. Learn to take things easy and you will soon find life much more enjoyable.



1 week ago, I was still worrying about my results and whether I will pass my probation. Then I asked myself "Will worrying help the whole situation?" No. What is done is done, learn to accept it.

"Life is great, reality is harsh." Nobody can get whatever they want in life. Instead of looking at how many flaws you have, look at how many strength you got. Instead of looking at a glass of water and saying that it is half-empty, look at it and say its half-full. It all boils down to a matter of perspective.






Tell me? What do you see? A cup? Look at it from a different perspective. Soon you will see something new...


Learn to look at things from a different angle, learn to look at things positively. No matter what happens, life goes on. " Life is short so make the best outta it!"


Instead of grumbling and whining when you got shitty results, what you should do is to reflect and promise to work harder next time. Whining doesn't help. Accept it.


When I realised I failed my physics paper, I was devastated. Instead of dreading about failing probation, I was thinking about how happy I should be getting into combined schools! I was happy for the whole day. There is sure to be ups and downs in life, what we can do is to face it positively.


Learn to take things easy, you will soon find that life ain't that bad!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Don't look back

Don't look back.

Cose~ All that is left will be regrets.

Great memories tainted with regrets...


If only I could turn back the clock, I swear you will be mine.

No matter how bad you may be, I will change you, help you, love you...

No girl was able to move my heart, only you did.

When you are around, I can't focus on anything but you...

When our eyes met, we stared for a whole 5 seconds.

When our hands touched, I melted...

No matter how good I am, I know I will never match you.


17 months since we last met. I still can't get over you, damn it.

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Love

We will never realised how great they were... wad they ever did for you... until the day you found the true about what they ever did for you... all the hard work they put in to satisfy the everything you wanted.... phone, money, all your wants... you will never know that they are bracing themselves to earn that amount of money to buy that thing for you...

All the hard work and time they spent just to earn more JUST for you and your retarded needs... you always smile and say thankyou to them when they get you what you want but the next moment you are in an argument with them... criticizing them... at that point of time have you ever thought what they did for you...

MUST you wait till he specify the things that he ever done for you.... and now YOU say that they are unfair... come on think about it... they might be in need of money but JUST for you they spent that money for you... and all their hard work is gone in that very moment is gone... just because you say "daddy i want that...plsplspls" deep in their heart they want to satisfy what you want and they agree.... but you do not appreciate what they did.... until the very moment then i realise that what he did was for me... you never know...

They might be having a smile on their face now but in their heart they are thinking of how to solve a problem that troubles them because of you.... so understand ur parents.... think of what they did for you....

*From a close fren...

Friday, May 7, 2010

Exams Over~~~

WOoHOo~~~

EXAMS Over~! Finally!

These mid-year exams have been an exceptionally long one, lasting over 2 whole weeks. Most paper wesre rather long as well. But I'm glad it’s all over~

I'm glad that exams have ended but that brings me to the next test. Triple Science Probation.

I hate these 3 words, but I have to face it.

These 3 words alone is enough to make my legs jelly. Failing it is not an option. I think I'm pretty safe now but the only thing worrying me now is my physics paper...

I totally blank out during physics paper. Took close to 30 minutes to remember the formula for work done... “Force X Distance” I could not think properly then. I majorly screwed up this paper.

I dun think I will fail this paper but I don't think I can score very well too. There is a possibility I might get an overall of below 60 for my physics this term which means that I will fail my probation...

Blanking out? Could not think properly? Think I'm just giving myself excuses. Honestly, I did not really study for my physics paper. I probably ‘blanked out’ due to my uncertainty in my concept and 'could not think properly' due to too many uncertainty in my answers which accumulated and affected my confidence when I was doing the paper.

Who can I blame at the end of the day? Nobody else but myself.

I really really really hope to pass my probation and remain in 3-4. I will have totally no face to return to 3-8. If I were to be transferred back there, I seriously do not know what I will do. I can’t return back there.

When I was making my birthday wish back in April, I hoped for a spot in combined schools line 2 initially. But as I sat down in from of the snsd clock as it ticks pass 12 midnight, I changed my wish and hoped for myself to be able to pass triple science probation instead.

There is nothing I can do now. All I can do is to cross my fingers and pray hard. I must get at least 60% for my physics. I must and I have to.

I’m sure that even if I were to get below 60%, I will still be able to talk my way through and remain in 3-4, even if it requires me to talk to the principal.

Right now, all I can do is to be positive. There is no need for me to worry so much since I can’t do anything anyway. I should stay positive. I must stay positive. I might even easily get 60% for my physics and pass my probation.

There is no need to worry, there is nothing to worry~ cose I know if there were to be an obstacle, I will solve it, and my friends shall all be there to support me.

Monday, May 3, 2010

Its Over~


Really had been a great season for me.

Found myself improving a lot over these few months.

Like to thank Cren for giving me a lot of advices along the way =)

I may be playing for combined schools next season but my chances of getting in are 50 / 50. If I don't get in, then I will still be playing with you guys!

Other then the jersey and to seek more improvement by getting more exposure, I see no other reasons for myself to play for combined schools.

Really enjoyed playing with all of you. Bet my time with combined schools wouldn't be as enjoyable here. Here, I could really feel the warmth of being around friends like you.

Congrats to everybody that got an award and to those that did not, I would still like to thank you for contributing to the team in every way you could.

Below is the link for our seasons results!

http://www.floorballx.com/sfl2009div34.html



Below is the direct copying of material from:

http://chs-fb.xenium04.com/2010/05/floorball-league-awards-2009.htm


Floorball League Awards 2009


Team CH has done very well this season and as with the previous year, this inaugural awards will be decided by the mighty coach himself. All objections raised will not be entertained!


Golden Stick

-Crenshawn Lim (11 goals)

-Darrell Er (10 goals)

-Darius Sie (7 goals)

-Jarryl Chan (7 goals)

-Joshua Lee (6 goals)

Crenshawn Lim edged out Darrell Er with a last gasp goal in the final game to take the top scorer award!


Golden Blade

-Crenshawn Lim (5 assists)

-Darius Sie (4 assists)

-Joshua Lee (4 assists)

-Ryan Cheng (4 assists)

-Chee Keong (4 assists)

Crenshawn Lim provided the killer pass to create 5 goals to take home the Golden Blade award!


Golden Gloves

-Lander Chin

-Eugene Lee

Both goalkeepers were outstanding throughout the league, sharing the load equally between them and contributing to our record defence this year! Therefore, both players will share the honours in this category.


Most Commited Player

-Darrell Er

-Joshua Lee

-Jarryl Chan

-Ryan Cheng

-Lander Chin

-Crenshawn Lim

These players, in no order of merit, demonstrated the passion that they have for the game and to the team.


Most Improved Junior

Jarryl Chan

Having only picked up the game a year ago, he has improved in leaps and bounds and established himself as a key member of the team. Jarryl thoroughly deserves this award and the coach hopes he will keep his feet on the ground and continue to improve further.


Most Improved Senior

Eugene Lee

Eugene Lee can be almost unbeatable when at his best, although he can be prone to lapses in concentration at times. While not exactly the youngest in the team, he has stepped up to become a key member of the team in his first season and thus deserves this award.


Most Valuable Defender

Joshua Lee

Joshua is not only the anchor man in defence, his dribbles and forays in attack are extremely effective.


Most Valuable Centre

Darius Sie

It is hard to tell that Darius has only played floorball for 4 years. His vision and technique were exceptional and the players in his line benefited from his dribbles and passes for a healthy return of goals.


Most Valuable Forward

Darrell Er

Darrell not only has a powerful and accurate shot, he possessed the determination and drive to win the ball back and create goal-scoring opportunities for his teammates.


Most Valuable Player

Darrell Er

There were several players in consideration for this award, but Darrell Er would be the choice as he has not only contributed in terms of statistics, but in terms of leadership as well. The players look up to him for inspiration and he shows it with his hard running and constant pressure on his opponents in every game. Keep up the fantastic work!


As the season comes to an end, the coach would like to congratulate the team for doing well in the league. The alumni players also contributed immensely to the team and the coach hopes that more players will join the team over the years and bring up the standard of the team as time goes by. All the best for your future competitions!



Season Statistics:

Matches played: 12

Point leaders (Goals+Assists):

1) Crenshawn Lim (11+5)

2) Darrell Er (10+3)

3) Darius Sie (7+4)

4) Jarryl Chan (7+3)

5) Joshua Lee (6+4)

6) Ryan Cheng (4+4)

7) Chee Keong (4+4)

8) Jia Wei (5+1)

9) Su Kiat (4+1)

10) Louis Tan (3+0)

11) Jeffrey Mok (2+0)

12) Isaac Chee (2+0)

13) Kin Phang (2+0)

14) Kenneth Sooi (1+0)

15) Yu Ren (1+0)

16) Eugene Lee (0+1)

17) Soon Kiang (0+1)


Goals scored: 68 Goals conceded: 71

Goals scored/Game: 5.67 Goals conceded/Game: 5.92


Most goals scored in a match: 3 (Joshua Lee, Team TJ, 10/04/2010)


Most goals conceded in a match: 9 (Merahan Gunners, 21/02/2010)
9 (Yokohama Juniors, 02/05/2010)


Biggest win: 8-1 (Team TJ, 10/04/2010)

Biggest loss: 5-9 (Merahan Gunners, 21/02/2010)


Game record (W-D-L):5-0-7

Team CH won 5, drew none and lost 7 games, scored a total of 68 goals, conceded 71 goals for a goal difference of -3 and chalked up 15 points in all. The season ended on 2nd May 2010.