I know everybody is writing about stuff related to this. What 'last try' ah, 'give it all out', 'I live or I die', blablabla... I mean isn't it typical to write this kind of posts right before exams? Nothing wrong with it but really, when they were writing, did they really meant what they wrote?
For me, this is really the first time I'm getting serious about my studies... Really, I swear ever since I came into CHS I never once got serious about any exams... I always thought that studying was lifeless and just had to get over with it. I played played played. Even before the Sec 2 EOY, I even went to lan... The weekend right before the whole week of exams... Zai right? This year was worst, I didn't even complete the WS-es teacher's gave and hardly touch the revision practise papers that were given before exams, less say touch my TYS-es.
I just try to get over with everything, 'don't fail can already' that was my mindset. My results? Deteriorating... I couldn't study cose I didn't have the motivation to work... I kept creating 'imaginary' motivation for myself, until the point I think so much that I had a near mental breakdown, which was the period around August, where I got hysterical. It was Eugene that helped me get past the period, doing something more than he had to, taking the extra effort. Really apreciated even though I need not return back anymore...
Okay back to topic, 'imaginary' motivation. Yes, these 'imaginary' motivation was totally unable to motivate me at all. I felt aimless, nothing to work for until this monday.
"You study for nothing but yourself". The phrasing may not be exact but the meaning is there. A quote by my primary school teacher. It really brought me back to my primary school days and reminded me of my ability as a student. The missing 'motivation' that I was lacking, I found it back. Ty for reminding me, *mum*=)
Indeed, I study for nothing but myself. For my future, for myself, nobody else. Judging from my results, I'm failing my parents, my primary school teacher and most importantly, myself... It's really time for me to grow up... To study for myself=) My future lies in my hands... I'm not fighting against retaining or anything so I can really go into the exam hall this time with not stress, but just to prove to myself that I'm capable of much more. Improvement, that is my aim for EOY. No need for a jump to A1 for all subjects, but at least a grade better for all subjects.
This is really last minute but it is better than nothing, better than not studying at all, like I did in the past. It's gonna be a bit rush but I will try my best to salvage the situation.
" It is only when you realise you want to score well, that you actually had a lot things you can do to excel." I finally understand the theory of 'consistency'... Should have worked harder in the past...
Chapters to go: 56, 36 excluding A math and Bio.
Chapters completed: 26.
26 chapters in like 3 nights? Not impossible since I still got the weekends to do my 'final push'...
Actually studying ain't that difficult. If you force yourself to study for like 15 minutes or so, you will actually feel like studying. Just don't get distracted, or you will regret wasting precious time...
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Fighting for our own beliefs
Believing in what we are fighting for
Fighting for our future
A future worth fighting for
Embrace the joy when you succeed
as joy embraces you
Results are more than numbers
Numbers that mean more than results
The recognition of your own ability
Having the ability to recognise it
Let this be a final push
OR BE PUSHED OVER...
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