Saturday

So I scored 2 and assist 2. Pretty decent since I was aiming for a 1 goal 2 assist for today's game...6-6, why are we still not playing to our standard? Really think that we got a lot to work on if we wanna aim for top 4. Long way to go…But then again, I should be seeing the team scoring as a whole and not count it as a personal achievement... Who cares...

Gaps in skills are getting greater and more obvious now... We are starting to be able to see the rankings quite obviously now...

Want to change captain? Be my guest. Store door can't lock, nothing I can do. The fans not off was not my idea. Gym wasn't me using last. All humans make mistakes. It's not entirely my job yea? Cause I'm always the last to leave the place so everything becomes my fault now. Then I rather be the first to leave so nothing becomes my fault. People can just change and leave as and when they want, I have to wait and ensure everything is kept then can leave. People want to leave then I don't need leave ah? We all got our own lives to live too. All people see is the mistakes committed, ever thought that the very person that is held responsible is actually the one that does almost everything? Sometimes even if I want to leave early I can't. Cose I have to wait for everybody to leave and keep everything and THEN I can leave... At least 7.30 then can leave. I'm a student like everybody else. I'm like a floorballer like everybody else. I'm just taking the extra intiative and commitment to do something more. Appreciate... Don't agree with this then just get a change. I'm cool with that. Good to put yourself in people's shoes at times. I'm at fault but not totally entirely my fault yea?

Went card shop with Derek and YH after training. lol. Was kinda fun since my deck was still able to win a few rounds against rather strong opponent. E-hero FTW!

Slept once I could. Too tired for anything. Really want to study but really not in the mood now... I'm feeling depressed for dunno what reasons... Had LOTS to write before I switch on the com but the 'feel' is gone. I'm very confused now. I have lost sight of my future. I really dunno what is happening to me but this is not good. Things aren't going as well as I had thought. Everything...