-Sat in my dad's car to school today. It was pouring heavily outside. Felt really warm and cozy in my dad's car then. Saw people walking to school in the rain, felt very fortunate that my dad actually drove me to school. We often see what our parents don't do for us but rarely see what our parents actually do for us...
-Went to school early for morning training. Had a bit of fun there. Sec 1s are really good, hope they can achieve Top '4' and complete our dream one day... Just realised something as well, I can't really shoot very well... Off target most of the time... No comments needed btw.
See those big gaps in between the team? That is how we are like now. Small groups... A simple warm-up drill shows everything. We were never a team...
- Went straight to gym after the geo project meeting was over. Had a rude welcome from the team. Think that they are not pleased to see me or something? Ignored that and went for court.
- That was when everything happened. Shots came no where near the goal. Air-hooking (which was suppose to be my training objective ) did not seem to be working. Groin hurting like shyt. All the passes I received were shitty, had to run and chase for it or it came to my back hand. Passes I made was shitty as well. One of the worst training I ever had there. And my fucking knee was hurting like shyt!!! Can't even straighten my leg... Worst still, can't even change direction or the whole knee might even dislocate...
- Blew my temper and started slamming every ball that came to me. The whole team was irritated, I'm not sure why but everybody seemed distracted. During individual training, I sneaked out and ended up air-hooking down and up the stairs. Really made myself to cool down and think through things.
- Got back to training and decided to smile. Suddenly, the whole team seem to brighten up. I realised something, all my actions will actually affect the whole team, directly or indirectly. I took my frustration on court and everybody became frustrated as well. I decided to smile as a result.
- Played match. _!_.
- Did pt and realise that I can't do lunges. Both knee can't do.
Went back home.
Friday.
- Compo test was screwed up, again. I wrote 1 and a half pages and still haven reach climax yet... Best still, 10 minutes left. I was over-confident, I thought essay writing was one of my best papers. I THOUGHT I could ace it, but I failed once again. I made the same mistake. Big head small body. I spent 10 minutes writing the introduction and 20 minutes trying to bring the characters to the setting. Ended up with 10 minutes for the climax. Didn't check my work as well. An 18 would be more than enough for me.
I used to have a large amount of vocabularies in my arsenal due to the enormous amount of books I used to read when I was young. Essay writing were my favourite paper then. But i stopped reading now days. I thought those vocabularies I accumulated in primary school can last me through secondary school. I was wrong. A lesson to learn from this, learning never stops. Seem like I have to work HARDER on my essay writing in the future. Complete the essay within the time frame to practise time management and to write simple stories that describes the thoughts and feelings of the character rather than stories that has a super long build-up.
- Hang around at the pool room with Joshua, Eugene, Derek, Cren, Jie Ying and You hong. Had so fun there but decided not to watch any movie.
As I was watching the rest play pool, I had this vision that playing pool actually makes a person cooler and brings out the 'bad boy' image, those that girls are crazy over. Wanted to learn pool for a moment there but I realised something underlying this issue. Do we need to impress girls by acting cool?
If you really want a gf, if she really likes you, she will like who you are, not an act cool version of yourself. Girls that come after you be'cose of your looks or money, tell them to f*ck off. What matters most is the inside not the outside...
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Respect. That is what I'm aiming to gain from everyone. I hope everybody will look up to me, in the way I act, the way I excel in all aspects of my life and the way I think. I want the respect of all my peers.
To get respect from them, I should start to build up my character and change the way I act first...
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I'm really bad at maintaining relationships... I swear....
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