Painful Truth.

It's really painful when there is no one is there walking with you through the hardest phase of your life…

Instead of understanding why I was so tired and fell asleep on Thursday night at 8pm, all they did was to scold me for not any completing work before I slept. Maybe they didn’t know I slept at 12.30 the previous night after 3 hours of vigorous training and had lessons till 5.30 on that day, not surprising, cose they don’t care anything about me, other than my results of course.

They scold me for practicing floorball for 1 hour at my void deck, ‘wasting time’ they claimed.

Can’t they understand the fact that I’m working so hard now is also for my future as well? Why am I having so much commitments, floorball, captaincy, combined schools, national geo project competition, prefect… This is more than I can cope but I’m trying, hanging in there, alone…

Every day I’m so tired, so tired till I can fall asleep once I hit my bed but I never once gave up nor grumble about it.

I really wish to be able to drop all my commitments one day, be a slack school boy that does nothing but to study. Everyday, I can return home straight after school, complete my work and maybe play a few rounds of dota. Eat chips and fast food everyday and heck care about my health and fitness. Be a loner and stick with my family only, like a mammy boy. Grow up and get a high paying office job, buy a house and a car and have a lot of money.

Like that, I can truly fulfill my parents’ wish.

But why should I listen to them, it’s my life. I don’t want to die and having only my family members sending me off, which means that I have no friends, no influence, and no impact on anybody’s life.

I don't want to be like my sis, have no true friends, have no influence or impact in any aspect of her life, simply studying for the certificate which grants her good job prospects in the future.

Can’t they understand why I’m doing so much now? Why? I can simply quit floorball and combined schools, drop out of the geo competition, quit PB, don’t study… I’m doing everything for my future, all my commitments are killing me, but I’m hanging in there, for my future...

Instead of encouraging and caring, all they know to do is to take everything from their perspective, and blame us. They always think that they are right, always thinking that they are adults; that they are more mature than we are.

As a matter of fact, I believe that we have far more mature thinking than our parents already. They thinks that life is all about earning more $ and leading a luxurious life is the greatest pleasure in the world. Childish and narrowed-minded thinking of theirs have brought us up, making us believe the fact that studying hard is our priority in our lives as students, and getting good results means good future job prospects.

If you have been reading my blog, you would have understood by now that life ain’t all about having lots of money and luxuries. Yes, to a certain extent, have enough money to buy a house and a car and to support your family, but NEVER to the full extent. If throughout our lives, we obtain happiness through the comfort of luxuries, we would have wasted our lives as we did not understand the true meaning of happiness…

Happiness is when we do things which we enjoy, passion…
Happiness is when we spend time with our friends and beloved ones…
Happiness is when we help others and receive the ‘thank you’ from them…
Happiness is when we live our lives with a smile…

I often heard grumbles from my parents, stating that they are suffering from stress and oppression from their work. Grumbling that they have to manage the house and work at the same time. Job, is about doing something which you like, something which you enjoy, something that may not pay you a lot but something that brings you happiness every day.

Building up a home, is something we should enjoy; keeping it clean and making it as comfortable as possible, bring out a sense of warmth in the family, shouldn’t it be an enjoyable process? Taking care and loving your beloved ones should never be a burden instead, a duty.

Happiness exist everywhere, is only a matter of how we find it amidst of our daily life. You can smile by telling yourself that the science test is over instead of dreading over the results.

What is the truth purpose of studying? To obtain good results? Or to learn about great things our ancestors have discovered and appreciate the knowledge and wisdom we have learnt? Results are just results, they are plainly a set of numbers that determines our understanding of our various subjects. It seem like even teachers nowdays have forgotten the true vision behind teaching, instead, they are teaching us how to obtain good results instead of learning and understanding the subjects…

Many things in life now days have been twisted off its original purpose, especially in a country like Singapore where meritocracy is present. It is up to us to once again uncover the true meaning behind the many things in life and one thing is for sure, I’m gonna live MY life MY way.

My parents may think that I’m childish, unrealistic but I know that I’m far more mature than they are. I know that I’m far more educated and far more sophisticated than they are. I know that the society out there is very realistic and harsh, but I’m not gonna forgot the true meaning of life just be’cose of that. We all live one life, live it the right way.