Dying

I really feel like dying right now...

I feel like crying, reason unknown.

I'm so tired of my life. So tired of it...

I just want to slack my life away for the next few days, doing nothing at all.

Heck all the hw and exams, I'm in no mood to attend to them.

Really hope that I can sleep and never wake up, that would be the best.

Dun come and bother me, cose if anybody is doing so, I'm gonna tell him to fuck off. Nothing in my life now is important, everything seem pointless.

At the end of the day, what do I get? Nothing.

I was right. I got no friends that understand me, not even one was close to getting it right. My so-called 'friends'... none got close to the answers...

And Cren, I'm really considering to be a taxi driver in the future...

One day everybody will come to this point in time thinking, "What am I living for? Why am I working so hard everyday?"

What do I really get from it? Life is harsh, reality makes it worse...

Maybe my parents were right. Friends are there when you doing fine,but your family will be there will you are in trouble. Blood is thicker than water, I'm starting to understand why now...

From now on, I shall be a loner. In fact, I was alone all along. I just had the illusion that I had friends with me. I was lying to myself obviously.

Alone now, walking to the end point of adolescence. Took me quite a while but I'm through. I'm no longer who I used to be anymore. I came to my senses already.

There is no one that understands you better than your family does.

Cooler, darker and more mature. I'm a different person from now.

I don't derserve to your friend, neither do you...