It was all a dream.

It was all a dream. It took me this long to realise that.

I lied to myself. I told myself over and over again " Not to give up. If there is hope, there will be miracles..." Miracles don't exist in this world.

3 times, and all 3 times I failed. That is more than enough for me. It all ends here.

Do you know how it feels when you tried so hard and yet you still fail? It's much more painful compared to you not trying as hard but still failed in the end.

Why bother so much when nobody appreciates what you have done? Why even bother...

Maybe when I go to a JC, I will go back to individual sports. It much easier that way...