Was on my way back home when I met one of my primary school friend, Scott. Saw him at Bishan already but only managed to muster enough courage to talk to him until the train stopped at Yio Chu Kang. Had a nice little chat with him and realise he didn't change much, just probably more handsome and grown taller.
Wouldn't it be nice if we are could remain the same person we were in primary school? Innocent and carefree... It would really be nice if I could return back to who I was when I was younger.
Was walking to the Bishan Mrt today. I was alone, so i tried ato follow my primary school 'style' of going home. Big strides, rushing home even though there is no apparent rush. I managed to get back that 'feel'. It felt good. Can't describe the feeling but it's like going back to where you were 5 years back. All those fond memories of yourself doing things which are probably considered childish to you by now.
Time indeed past so fast... Even things that I would never think of happening to people around me have happened. Time have changed, we have changed. We all changed, but the crucial point is, whether it's for the better or for the worst?
Life will be perfect if we could rewind everything and start all over again. Then we can all correct our mistakes and lead a perfect life... But mistakes and surprises are what make our lives more interesting, ain't it?
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Comparing myself now to who I was 3 years ago, I can't help but to feel ashamed of myself. I can hardly believe myself. I've changed so much, from a person which I myself even respect, to somebody i despise. 3 years... I've changed for the worst...
It took me 3 years... 3 years to realise that I'm no longer who I was 3 years ago. I've changed so much that I can hardly accept it.
But all of this is gonna change. I will try, try my very best, to become the Darrell I knew 3 years back. I threw away most of my good traits and inherited bad ones. Time to do a reversal. Drop the bad ones and pick up those good ones...
This time it's gonna be slightly different... cose I'm in a new environment, with new people, new things to do... But I'm going to find back my old self... The one which I myself even admire...
Take some time to think about it. Were you a better person 3 years back when you were in primary school or are you a better person now, or did you not change at all? If you are like me, think about it... What caused all of these and are you gonna do anything about it? Finding back your old self?
***
Procrastinate... That's my weakness...
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
LOL
Boy: When do you touch yourself the most?
Girl: That's a bit personal...
Boy: At that period of time, were you naked?
Girl: I think so...
Boy: And were you alone?
Girl: Of course...
Boy: And you normally take around 10 to 15 minutes...
Girl: Yea...
Boy: I knew it!!! You touch yourself the most when you bath!
Sometime things are not the way you think it is...
Girl: That's a bit personal...
Boy: At that period of time, were you naked?
Girl: I think so...
Boy: And were you alone?
Girl: Of course...
Boy: And you normally take around 10 to 15 minutes...
Girl: Yea...
Boy: I knew it!!! You touch yourself the most when you bath!
Sometime things are not the way you think it is...
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Tuesday, August 10, 2010
I hate myself
Self discipline, the ability to do what is need, to follow the plan...
Self control, the ability to restrain myself from doing things, that occur unexpectedly, which is not part of the plan...
Self-determination, to noy give up doing something easily, to last till the end and not give up
Self confidence, to believe in myself that I can do it, to trust my ability and not doubt it
Self motivation, to encourage myself, to make myself believe that I can do it..
My 5 pointers I keep reminding myself when I'm carrying out my plans...
After 4 days, I came to a conclusion...
I got no self discipline at all...
Self control, even worse still.
Determination, negligible.
Too much self confidence
Too optimistic, too much self motivation till I dunno what am I motivating myself for...
I'm such a loser... I hate myself, I hate myself to be unable to follow my plans.
I got to train myself even further, to have self discipline, self control and determination to carry out my plan, then with some self confidence and motivation, then can I finish what I set out to do.
C'mon Darrell!!! Don't be a loser!!!! I'm a winner!!!
Self control, the ability to restrain myself from doing things, that occur unexpectedly, which is not part of the plan...
Self-determination, to noy give up doing something easily, to last till the end and not give up
Self confidence, to believe in myself that I can do it, to trust my ability and not doubt it
Self motivation, to encourage myself, to make myself believe that I can do it..
My 5 pointers I keep reminding myself when I'm carrying out my plans...
After 4 days, I came to a conclusion...
I got no self discipline at all...
Self control, even worse still.
Determination, negligible.
Too much self confidence
Too optimistic, too much self motivation till I dunno what am I motivating myself for...
I'm such a loser... I hate myself, I hate myself to be unable to follow my plans.
I got to train myself even further, to have self discipline, self control and determination to carry out my plan, then with some self confidence and motivation, then can I finish what I set out to do.
C'mon Darrell!!! Don't be a loser!!!! I'm a winner!!!
Thursday, August 5, 2010
20 thing u should know about me...
Here are a list of 20 things which you should know about me:
1) I'm a big fan of SNSD!! Jessica, Tiffany and Tae Yeon are my favourites...
2) I love chocolate!!! All kind!!!
3) I'm a K-pop'rian...
4) I love floorball!!!
5) I love to swim, although I don't really swim nowdays. FYI, I started swimming in P2, coompleted 'Gold' and 'life saving 3' at P4, joined a swimming club 'Swim Knights' at P5 and entered competitive swimming. Trained daily except weekends for 3 hours daily, really very tiring. Didn't excel in swmming, was only above average. Continued till pre-PSLE. Stop swimming ever since...
6) I love to read, esp Anthony Horowitz books and Maximum Ride series. Love all spying/agent/intelligence/exciting storyline books. Huge reader in primary school... During primary school, could read up to 35 books during EOY break...
7) Favourite bubble tea is Oreo.
8) Plays dota. Favourite heroes are --> Axe, Yunero, Storm. Not very good at it but enjoy it though... But can easily own Cren's balls~
9) Very positive about everything!!! At least, most of the times...
10) Priorities in life is: Family and Friends, Passion (floorball), Future(studying).
11) Plans to represent my nation in the future!! Salute.
12) Love to spend money on things that are worth it to me.
13) Not planning to hav a GF till duno when...
14) Favourite pastime is sleeping...
15) Hates it when ppl are selfish or self-centered...
16) Dun like to rely too much on electronic devices...
17) Doesn't pick up calls or reply immediately since phone is often in slient or in the bag.
18) Tend to be late in the morning.
19) Have a personal set of life theory and principles.
20) Doesn't eat fastfood unless forced to, except KFC. I mean, how can you live without it's chicken for more than a month? I will die!
That's more or less things you should know about me...
Nites...
1) I'm a big fan of SNSD!! Jessica, Tiffany and Tae Yeon are my favourites...
2) I love chocolate!!! All kind!!!
3) I'm a K-pop'rian...
4) I love floorball!!!
5) I love to swim, although I don't really swim nowdays. FYI, I started swimming in P2, coompleted 'Gold' and 'life saving 3' at P4, joined a swimming club 'Swim Knights' at P5 and entered competitive swimming. Trained daily except weekends for 3 hours daily, really very tiring. Didn't excel in swmming, was only above average. Continued till pre-PSLE. Stop swimming ever since...
6) I love to read, esp Anthony Horowitz books and Maximum Ride series. Love all spying/agent/intelligence/exciting storyline books. Huge reader in primary school... During primary school, could read up to 35 books during EOY break...
7) Favourite bubble tea is Oreo.
8) Plays dota. Favourite heroes are --> Axe, Yunero, Storm. Not very good at it but enjoy it though... But can easily own Cren's balls~
9) Very positive about everything!!! At least, most of the times...
10) Priorities in life is: Family and Friends, Passion (floorball), Future(studying).
11) Plans to represent my nation in the future!! Salute.
12) Love to spend money on things that are worth it to me.
13) Not planning to hav a GF till duno when...
14) Favourite pastime is sleeping...
15) Hates it when ppl are selfish or self-centered...
16) Dun like to rely too much on electronic devices...
17) Doesn't pick up calls or reply immediately since phone is often in slient or in the bag.
18) Tend to be late in the morning.
19) Have a personal set of life theory and principles.
20) Doesn't eat fastfood unless forced to, except KFC. I mean, how can you live without it's chicken for more than a month? I will die!
That's more or less things you should know about me...
Nites...
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Choices
If you can change 1 thing in your life right now,what would it be?
.......
For me, I will remain as how things are right now...
What we have became today is the result of the many choices we had to make during our lives...
Don't wish for anything more or less, cose~ this might be the best result you will ever get.
Be contempted with what you have now. You never know how your life would screw up if any single aspect in your life changes.
The decision you have made in the past are based on what you were thinking then, which of course, may not be the most informed choice but just remember, you made the decision and you made the right decision. No regrets...
Regretting is part of life
Regretting wasting time on regretting is the only reason we should regret
But wasting time on regretting on wasting time on regretting makes it no better
So, quit regretting,
Cose~ You've always been making the right choice to become who you are today
Any slight change in your life right now can just screw you up.
* For those that dun understand. For eg, you wish you had better floorball skills. Your life made a major change now. You are in combined schools, you spend even more time on floorball everyday, you start to get arrogant, you want to get a better stick to match your skills, you rise up to captain and take up more responsibility. You become popular and spend time with your friends then your family and studies. You play in Div 1 and get injured.
Result ( After being better in floorball): No time, get arrogant, want to buy new stick, take up captain's responsibility, spend more time with friends, lesser time with family. Studies screw up cose no time study, get injured in the end, so no more floorball.
SO better floorball skills makes your life better? Think again? I believe all of us are the best we can get, dun try to overdo stuff and end up screwing up your life. The life we have right now is the best and the most suitable one. Don't try to jump steps, you will end up falling. Follow the rules, one step at a time. Nobody can change overnight, you want to have better floorball skills, even if god grants you the wish, you will screw up your life ( like the scenario above). If you want to have good floorball skills and not screw up your life, train harder. You will spend more time, but you will learn to adapt in the process and cope with it. When your good enough, you can then have good floorball skills and not screw up your life. Work hard, one step at a time...
What we are today are the choices we have made in the past. Should I play floorball, should I study harder, should I make friends with him? Remember, whatever choice you made, it was the best one. You want to improve your life? One step at a time. We achieve what we achieved if through gradual hardwork and effort, not something that we can obtain overnight. Success takes time to build up...
I suggest, don't ever regret your choice and stop dreaming, start working towards your dreams...
Nites...
Blood pledge rocks...
.......
For me, I will remain as how things are right now...
What we have became today is the result of the many choices we had to make during our lives...
Don't wish for anything more or less, cose~ this might be the best result you will ever get.
Be contempted with what you have now. You never know how your life would screw up if any single aspect in your life changes.
The decision you have made in the past are based on what you were thinking then, which of course, may not be the most informed choice but just remember, you made the decision and you made the right decision. No regrets...
Regretting is part of life
Regretting wasting time on regretting is the only reason we should regret
But wasting time on regretting on wasting time on regretting makes it no better
So, quit regretting,
Cose~ You've always been making the right choice to become who you are today
Any slight change in your life right now can just screw you up.
* For those that dun understand. For eg, you wish you had better floorball skills. Your life made a major change now. You are in combined schools, you spend even more time on floorball everyday, you start to get arrogant, you want to get a better stick to match your skills, you rise up to captain and take up more responsibility. You become popular and spend time with your friends then your family and studies. You play in Div 1 and get injured.
Result ( After being better in floorball): No time, get arrogant, want to buy new stick, take up captain's responsibility, spend more time with friends, lesser time with family. Studies screw up cose no time study, get injured in the end, so no more floorball.
SO better floorball skills makes your life better? Think again? I believe all of us are the best we can get, dun try to overdo stuff and end up screwing up your life. The life we have right now is the best and the most suitable one. Don't try to jump steps, you will end up falling. Follow the rules, one step at a time. Nobody can change overnight, you want to have better floorball skills, even if god grants you the wish, you will screw up your life ( like the scenario above). If you want to have good floorball skills and not screw up your life, train harder. You will spend more time, but you will learn to adapt in the process and cope with it. When your good enough, you can then have good floorball skills and not screw up your life. Work hard, one step at a time...
What we are today are the choices we have made in the past. Should I play floorball, should I study harder, should I make friends with him? Remember, whatever choice you made, it was the best one. You want to improve your life? One step at a time. We achieve what we achieved if through gradual hardwork and effort, not something that we can obtain overnight. Success takes time to build up...
I suggest, don't ever regret your choice and stop dreaming, start working towards your dreams...
Nites...
Blood pledge rocks...
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