Was on my way back home when I met one of my primary school friend, Scott. Saw him at Bishan already but only managed to muster enough courage to talk to him until the train stopped at Yio Chu Kang. Had a nice little chat with him and realise he didn't change much, just probably more handsome and grown taller.
Wouldn't it be nice if we are could remain the same person we were in primary school? Innocent and carefree... It would really be nice if I could return back to who I was when I was younger.
Was walking to the Bishan Mrt today. I was alone, so i tried ato follow my primary school 'style' of going home. Big strides, rushing home even though there is no apparent rush. I managed to get back that 'feel'. It felt good. Can't describe the feeling but it's like going back to where you were 5 years back. All those fond memories of yourself doing things which are probably considered childish to you by now.
Time indeed past so fast... Even things that I would never think of happening to people around me have happened. Time have changed, we have changed. We all changed, but the crucial point is, whether it's for the better or for the worst?
Life will be perfect if we could rewind everything and start all over again. Then we can all correct our mistakes and lead a perfect life... But mistakes and surprises are what make our lives more interesting, ain't it?
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Comparing myself now to who I was 3 years ago, I can't help but to feel ashamed of myself. I can hardly believe myself. I've changed so much, from a person which I myself even respect, to somebody i despise. 3 years... I've changed for the worst...
It took me 3 years... 3 years to realise that I'm no longer who I was 3 years ago. I've changed so much that I can hardly accept it.
But all of this is gonna change. I will try, try my very best, to become the Darrell I knew 3 years back. I threw away most of my good traits and inherited bad ones. Time to do a reversal. Drop the bad ones and pick up those good ones...
This time it's gonna be slightly different... cose I'm in a new environment, with new people, new things to do... But I'm going to find back my old self... The one which I myself even admire...
Take some time to think about it. Were you a better person 3 years back when you were in primary school or are you a better person now, or did you not change at all? If you are like me, think about it... What caused all of these and are you gonna do anything about it? Finding back your old self?
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Procrastinate... That's my weakness...
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