WTF...

Know why I put WTF as the title? Read on I think you will start saying WTF too....

Tuesday after the maths paper, did gym and then team meeting then LAN! Exam just end then got training straight( 1st WTF) But its still ok la. Lan was kinda fun... Did'nt really own or get own=)

Here, comes the real WTF, I just came back home after lan. Mum told me not to use computer( 2nd WTF! Hello, exams just ended...) Hu cares, I just switch on the com and played my 1st dota match ever since I deleted dota. Hurray! I was playing for 20 minutes when my father came in and tell me to stop ( 20 minutes stop? Haven even started WTF)...

After the 1st game, I decided to go bath and switch off the computer cose I don't want to anger my mum. 10 minutes later, Mum came home, oops still bathing. Here comes! "Boy! Why you now then bath?"

"Erm, was playing computer mah... Exam just over leh.."WTF, she kao bei-ed for the next half an hour....

Oops again, mum found out that I haven take off the buttons on my uniform!
Dunno wat happened to her, she took away the keyboard and mouse. WTF!

Reason being: Play com till like that, don't want bath and did not take off the button! Dun let you play... WTF, stupid and unreasonable...

Exam just over, the 1st day that I can finally play com then it was gone...WTF

I was damn EMO, then I went to nego with my parents to get the keyboard back.. Failed damn it...

Super EMo-ed, I could only play with his rubix cube on his bed. Was damn hot and went to ask Dad if can switch on the air-con. Dunno what got into him, he came to my room and scolded me for like half an hour straight. Of course, Darrell was not to be messed with, the arguement began like this:

" Weather not hot, on air con for what? I not hot you hot meh?"

"You not hot does'nt mean I not hot right?"

"I say cannot means CANNOT"

"..."

"Just now say hungry right? Did'nt eat dinner right?"

" Walao, I got eat la. Don't believe can call my friends la. 4 of us eat together de!"

"I just repeat what you say.."

" I said I ate McDonald with my friends and I'm now hungry... What I say?"

"Means you did'nt eat then will hungry la..."

"I didnt say that lor, is you say one hor. Don't believe can call my friends!"

"You threatening me isit?"

" Whr got, is you don't believe yr own son. Eat dinner aso don't believe.. Before exam, keep keyboard and mouse, after exam aso keep keyboard and mouse, might as well don't put the computer in my room!"

"Computer not yrs, ppl need use. Put your room cannot meh?"

"Exam just over you keep the keyboard and mouse, Ppl finally can play com then you keep it. What is this?"

Bored, took out rubix cube and played while arguing...

" I dun like you play com leh"

"Nvrm, I can dun play de (Mind think of jony and lan)"

"I TELL U> I DUN LIKE YOU PLAY COM LEH> I DUN LIKE YOU PLAY COM LEH!" Hitting my rubix cube on the floor... Scream his voice out loud.

When I was about to speak, he just shout louder than me, "I dun like you play leh!" What could I do? Punch him meh? wanted to but can't...

So I just stone thr lor, then he thought that he loud then he win and continue to kao bei me, but I decided to keep quiet cause in the end, once he shout I have to shuttup or punch him meh so I switch off the light and out on my earpiece and emo...

Then he continue his kao bei spree by coming to my room every 2 minutes to kao bei me for the next hour, finally he gave up....

I cried. This is the 1st time I cried in 4 years. I cried not be'cose I'm afraid of him but felt sad be'cose I have a father who do not understand me, do not trust me and do not know what I really need... He do not know who I'm really am... Does he know That I scold vulgaries? He know I go lan? He don't even know my CCA is floorball, he keep saying softball. He know any of my friends? He know wat is SNSD? He know I only got a dollar for lunch? He know I play dota? He know I got a blog? he know computer is my life? He understand me at all?

NO, he don't know anything? Unreasonable, stingy( After eating recess, I only got 1 dollar for lunch WTF), Fu*ked up! Eat dinner also need supect... If I everyday have to skip lunch then obviously I be hungry at night, stupid...

Can you feel my sorrow at that time? Have you ever really seen me cry? I'm always the kind that laugh laugh laugh, emo awhile then ok le. I was never sad.... This was the 1st time...

I was crying really badly under my blanket... Why did I have such a father? One that keep the keyboard and mouse straight after the exams, suspect his son all the time, give his son 1 dollar for lunch, kao bei like shyt? Why me?

Luckily, Wilson accompanied me throughout the night through sms me, made me feel slightly better thou. Then suddenly he came to my room and want to talk to me. Waste my fu*king 1 hour talking to him and in the end he still did not give me back my keyborad and mouse...

Fu*ker, from then on I did not talk to him in the face or call him"dad" when we meet, cose he don't derserve it. The only reason I will lie is be'cose of the fact that he do not understand me thats y I lie and this cose him not to trust me. I told him studying is my job, Dota, blogging and floorball is my life, if he takes away my com then he will be taking away 2/3 of my life... But he never understood any of them and still tries to discourage me from using computer...

My future ambitions all lies with my interest now...(blog= Writer, Dota=join MYM oneday, Floorball=National team oneday)

But he never undrstood any of this, he will never understand me...

I'm the kind that talks alot among friends rite but it is totally different for me at home. I go home bath and go to my room and stone( No light somemore cose mum say waste electricity)
Got food then go eat, go TV then watch, Nothing then go back room and stone. I nvr speak at home cose once I open my mouth, I get scolded... No com, No games, No nothing...

That's why I nvr say I'm going home, I always say that I'm going back to my house. Home is a place whr thr is love, warmth, trust and understanding. House is a place whr you keep yr things, bath eat and sleep...

Marking day that day I was EMO, but I did'nt show it, except to Wilson thou... I was dreading not to go home. I may always seem to be cheerful but you nvr know how much I hate to go home... How bottled up my sadness is....

I'm never gonna speak to my father face to face again, NEVER Ever Again!

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