Hi readers, if you ever metion anything about this post in front of me, I will just tell you that I don't know anything... So don't try to ask any questions regarding this topic after you read it... I may turn EMO if you persist... The only person I told was before was Isaac, due to some conditions and negiotiations...
Well, I knew her since 1 year ago, around this period, just before EOY> We got to each other at the library. She was Nz's de fren de fren. The first time I saw her, I was already attracted to her. Btw, she is korean. Yes, by now, maybe a few of you will noe her already, especially, Darius, DEREK, Wilson and Nz. LOL. It was about the time when I was about to ask her out for a date or something when many things happened. I found out she got a ex-boyfriend, thr was internal conflict between Nz, Li Nan(Nz primary school friend) ,Wilson and Derek for girls. That totally messed me up pretty badly. No offense to Nz, but he simply like all the girls out there, I decided to rest and wait...
Realising that friendship and boy-girl relationship were closely related, I decided that in order not to harm brother's relationship, I will not like her anymore. Things did not end then. Although I knew that I should not be falling for her again, I made her my JIE. At least that sort of keep us in contact. We went out as a group. Movies, ice-skating, so much fun... I will never forget, her smile, the way she speaks or the way she try to act cute... But not anymore, cose I'm gonna forget her...
After SOME incident, she distanced from us. She didn't even reply my messages. I was utterly sad, I was at least her DI...
We did not talk for a long long time since then until yesterday night. I sms-ed her. She replied for the 1st time in 7 months. I replied to her message, and I told myself if she reply to this, I will confess. But for the next 2 hours thr was nothing.... Suddenly, she told me her battery was flat and sry for late reply. I was so freaking happy she did not dao me anymore, I sms her again and told myself she is giving me a chance. But the sms was never replied again. Dun think her battery ran out again... I from then on decided to give up on her, she gave me hope and broke it again...
You might say that I do not have the balls like Nz, Wilson or even Derek to tell a girl that I like her, even thou u might get rejected... I sort of admire them for their bravery... Maybe I should have told her then but it is too late to regret now...
I decide to forget about her and move on with life. There is always another girl which might be better=) I'm so glad that I at least have the courage to write on this blog. RMB what was written in the 1st parargragh. Btw, do you think I should at least tell her that I once liked her or wat? Leave a message in Cbox. Nites.... Haiz...
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