Confidence

Think I'm having some doubts in my life cose I'm pretty low on confidence right now. Not really targeted at floorball specifically but includes many other things in my life as well. Haha, guess it is just another of my teenage angst. Part and parcel of life I guess.

Life for 2011 is really busy for me and I really like it, being able to live every single second with a purpose in mind. Can’t imagine how boring my life would be after the finals of the B div end... Haha, I really believe that we can do it=) Probably be mugging everyday but it is for a greater cause... Have to work for my ‘future’.

8-0. Pretty good match since the opponent is not really some easy pushover. But for me, it was not really a good game for me. Didn’t really play very well. Well, Jarryl did great as usual. Steady as a rock.

Heard from the stands people murmuring that ‘CHS the players all from CS one.” Judging from how I played, I’m really not playing to how a CS school player should be playing. I look, ordinary. Ahhh, I really got lots of things that I need to improve on if I really want to be better.

Watched Jian Hong owning on court and it really hit me that there is such a vast difference between me and him even though we are actually playing together as forward partners. Burden, like what cren always say. Really feel inferior whenever I go for CS training. Really feel very lousy there. But I think it lies more on confidence than anything else.

Flying off 2morow. Really hope this trip is worthwhile. One week of lessons and $. But I will of course regret if I didn’t go so=)

I’m really very vexed right now, really want to get myself to be what I’m hoping to be like. Walking with a sense of purpose everyday, doing things my style regardless of what others might think, be more confident and organised.

“Dreams are often unrealistic and impossible but as long as we have enough courage and determination, we can make the impossible possible.”

“To be one that one dream of, attaining perfection.”

Oya, to whoever you are: Don’t talk to you in that tone until I’m a national player? I make sure that turns into reality one day. I’m SOOOOO gonna kick your ass on court. Wait and see.

TO Darrell: CONFIDENCE! CONFIDENCE! CONFIDENE! Don’t underestimate yourself Darrell! Think about how much you have been through! You are a winner, you are gifted. You have been through hell before! Nothing should ever knock you down! YOU CAN DO IT! You got it! It is in you already! Just need to be confident! Don’t let one or two obstacles stop you from reaching your goal! You got to trust yourself.

Phew, hope that it helps me to gain confidence=)