If you were to choose between this two, who would you want?
1) A freaking pretty girl that you freaking crazy over, but nothing more than that.
2) A kind hearted girl who encourage you when you are down and give you support
Who would you choose?
Neither.
Cose I will not choose the first one and I know I'm not good enough for the second...
******
" I shall study for nobody else but myself." I got it. Thks. I will and I must work hard.
Ty for the encourage ya?
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Sunday, September 26, 2010
Selfishness
* Seem like there is some misconception. This post is not to hate, maybe the tone is a bit harsh but ultimately i want to help. Hatred is never in my dictionary, I always forgive. But I really hope to help this friend of mine.
I have never seen anybody as selfish as you..
Yes, it's you.
Such a simple request and yet you rejected me right away. If it was anybody else, they would probably have given it to me straight away. If they did, I would probably consider not eating it since I would feel bad cose they are so nice to me. But you? You immediately said no and even if I asked a few more times, your stand is firm. 'No, that is my food, you want it go get it yourself.' If it was anybody else, if I asked for a few times they would have given it to me.
Then when you realised that I was pissed and you would probably lose this friend of yours, you then tried to redeem the situation and offered it to me. You offered the food to me at the end because you knew that you are going to offend me and that will cause me to dao you or something and you did not want that to happen that's why you decided to offer me the food.
It is through little actions that people notice good or bad things about a person. You probably did whatever you did in the past because you realise that you are in a disadvantage if you were to offend anybody and that will put you in a spot.
Some actions of yours shows your character. In fact, too many. It is just that people do not mind or bother but whatever you did during this incident really pissed me off.
Firstly, look around you. Can you name me a friend whom you can truly say is your best friend? Friends share and are willing to give without gain. But given your character, tell me, how many best friends you have now and in the past?
Secondly, you always put yourself first when it comes to any situation. Of course, all humans are self-centered but not to your extent. You do everything for your own benefit. Never once you shown me that you actually do stuff for other people without hoping for anything in return. Every action of yours has it agenda, you know it yourself.
Thirdly, you don't put yourself in people's shoes when you act or speak. If you do, then you would probably be able to not be so self-centered. Think about how others might feel when you do something or say something.
The world does not revolve around you, treat the people with a different attitude from now on, putting yourself in their shoes, treat the people around you unselfishly. You would find that you would soon have much more friends and closer friends than now.
All the best
I have never seen anybody as selfish as you..
Yes, it's you.
Such a simple request and yet you rejected me right away. If it was anybody else, they would probably have given it to me straight away. If they did, I would probably consider not eating it since I would feel bad cose they are so nice to me. But you? You immediately said no and even if I asked a few more times, your stand is firm. 'No, that is my food, you want it go get it yourself.' If it was anybody else, if I asked for a few times they would have given it to me.
Then when you realised that I was pissed and you would probably lose this friend of yours, you then tried to redeem the situation and offered it to me. You offered the food to me at the end because you knew that you are going to offend me and that will cause me to dao you or something and you did not want that to happen that's why you decided to offer me the food.
It is through little actions that people notice good or bad things about a person. You probably did whatever you did in the past because you realise that you are in a disadvantage if you were to offend anybody and that will put you in a spot.
Some actions of yours shows your character. In fact, too many. It is just that people do not mind or bother but whatever you did during this incident really pissed me off.
Firstly, look around you. Can you name me a friend whom you can truly say is your best friend? Friends share and are willing to give without gain. But given your character, tell me, how many best friends you have now and in the past?
Secondly, you always put yourself first when it comes to any situation. Of course, all humans are self-centered but not to your extent. You do everything for your own benefit. Never once you shown me that you actually do stuff for other people without hoping for anything in return. Every action of yours has it agenda, you know it yourself.
Thirdly, you don't put yourself in people's shoes when you act or speak. If you do, then you would probably be able to not be so self-centered. Think about how others might feel when you do something or say something.
The world does not revolve around you, treat the people with a different attitude from now on, putting yourself in their shoes, treat the people around you unselfishly. You would find that you would soon have much more friends and closer friends than now.
All the best
Stuck
I'm currently stuck, whether to study anot... I know that there isn't much time left anyway, but still it's gonna make a significant difference.
Arguments for not studying:
- Less than a week left. Study or don't study makes no differences anw.
- Not like I'm gonna retain or smth. Screw up then screw up lor.
- Even if I don't study also won't screw up. Just can't get my desired results.
Arguments for studying:
- Cose it is my responsibility.
Yea, just one single reason to study and it easily defeats the rest of the arguments against it. Yea, I should study and less than 15 days IF I were to study hard for it. Is that so difficult?
God damn it. I really want to score well for EOY. I L1r5, 11! Not impossible right.
Aim:
Combined Humanities- A1
E math- A1
A math- A2
Geography- A2
Biology- A2
Chemistry- B3
Physics- B3
English- B3
Chinese- B4
But every time I get distracted. Just can't seem to study properly. Fuck. always promise myself to study but always fail to do so. What's wrong with me...
******
OMG. I'm a pervert!!!
Arguments for not studying:
- Less than a week left. Study or don't study makes no differences anw.
- Not like I'm gonna retain or smth. Screw up then screw up lor.
- Even if I don't study also won't screw up. Just can't get my desired results.
Arguments for studying:
- Cose it is my responsibility.
Yea, just one single reason to study and it easily defeats the rest of the arguments against it. Yea, I should study and less than 15 days IF I were to study hard for it. Is that so difficult?
God damn it. I really want to score well for EOY. I L1r5, 11! Not impossible right.
Aim:
Combined Humanities- A1
E math- A1
A math- A2
Geography- A2
Biology- A2
Chemistry- B3
Physics- B3
English- B3
Chinese- B4
But every time I get distracted. Just can't seem to study properly. Fuck. always promise myself to study but always fail to do so. What's wrong with me...
******
OMG. I'm a pervert!!!
Monday, September 20, 2010
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Saturday
So I scored 2 and assist 2. Pretty decent since I was aiming for a 1 goal 2 assist for today's game...6-6, why are we still not playing to our standard? Really think that we got a lot to work on if we wanna aim for top 4. Long way to go…But then again, I should be seeing the team scoring as a whole and not count it as a personal achievement... Who cares...
Gaps in skills are getting greater and more obvious now... We are starting to be able to see the rankings quite obviously now...
Want to change captain? Be my guest. Store door can't lock, nothing I can do. The fans not off was not my idea. Gym wasn't me using last. All humans make mistakes. It's not entirely my job yea? Cause I'm always the last to leave the place so everything becomes my fault now. Then I rather be the first to leave so nothing becomes my fault. People can just change and leave as and when they want, I have to wait and ensure everything is kept then can leave. People want to leave then I don't need leave ah? We all got our own lives to live too. All people see is the mistakes committed, ever thought that the very person that is held responsible is actually the one that does almost everything? Sometimes even if I want to leave early I can't. Cose I have to wait for everybody to leave and keep everything and THEN I can leave... At least 7.30 then can leave. I'm a student like everybody else. I'm like a floorballer like everybody else. I'm just taking the extra intiative and commitment to do something more. Appreciate... Don't agree with this then just get a change. I'm cool with that. Good to put yourself in people's shoes at times. I'm at fault but not totally entirely my fault yea?
Went card shop with Derek and YH after training. lol. Was kinda fun since my deck was still able to win a few rounds against rather strong opponent. E-hero FTW!
Slept once I could. Too tired for anything. Really want to study but really not in the mood now... I'm feeling depressed for dunno what reasons... Had LOTS to write before I switch on the com but the 'feel' is gone. I'm very confused now. I have lost sight of my future. I really dunno what is happening to me but this is not good. Things aren't going as well as I had thought. Everything...
Gaps in skills are getting greater and more obvious now... We are starting to be able to see the rankings quite obviously now...
Want to change captain? Be my guest. Store door can't lock, nothing I can do. The fans not off was not my idea. Gym wasn't me using last. All humans make mistakes. It's not entirely my job yea? Cause I'm always the last to leave the place so everything becomes my fault now. Then I rather be the first to leave so nothing becomes my fault. People can just change and leave as and when they want, I have to wait and ensure everything is kept then can leave. People want to leave then I don't need leave ah? We all got our own lives to live too. All people see is the mistakes committed, ever thought that the very person that is held responsible is actually the one that does almost everything? Sometimes even if I want to leave early I can't. Cose I have to wait for everybody to leave and keep everything and THEN I can leave... At least 7.30 then can leave. I'm a student like everybody else. I'm like a floorballer like everybody else. I'm just taking the extra intiative and commitment to do something more. Appreciate... Don't agree with this then just get a change. I'm cool with that. Good to put yourself in people's shoes at times. I'm at fault but not totally entirely my fault yea?
Went card shop with Derek and YH after training. lol. Was kinda fun since my deck was still able to win a few rounds against rather strong opponent. E-hero FTW!
Slept once I could. Too tired for anything. Really want to study but really not in the mood now... I'm feeling depressed for dunno what reasons... Had LOTS to write before I switch on the com but the 'feel' is gone. I'm very confused now. I have lost sight of my future. I really dunno what is happening to me but this is not good. Things aren't going as well as I had thought. Everything...
Monday, September 13, 2010
Long post..
This is gonna be a very very long post... I'm going to keep writing until my mum decides it's time for me to stop. Here goes...
1) Falling ill really sucks, and it sucks even more when your parents think you are faking it and you're planning to pon school. Okay, maybe a little but really, why bother going to school when you know you will be spending the entire day sleeping and not paying attention in school? Why don't you let your poor son stay at home and rest? Screw~
2) Visiting the polyclinic on a monday really sucks BIG TIME. How boring can it get when you have to waiting for 2 hours before you get to leave that place again? I was so freaking bored tat I even read the world news! Korea opening new trading regulation and will be reducing the entire process of trading by 3.4 hours and $0.4 per container... This will bla bla bla. Heck! Do I look like somebody that care a heck about what is happening between china and korea (okay, maybe alittle interest in korea), is it gonna affect me or is it even relevant to my life??? Watched Mr Bean on the TV until I got bored. I mean, who actually watches Mr Bean at my age!!!
3) Got a darn haircut. Okay, it's kinda screw-ed but I'm the kind that don't really care about my hairstyle cose I think I got enough self-confidence in my looks... Okay, it's not the haircut, it's the waiting time! 1 hour? Cose it's damn-it $2.50, the whole world HAVE to go there for their haircut. Cheapo-s. YOu must be thinking then why did I go there for my haircut right? Cose my parents freaking hell left me with $4 bucks for a haircut. Can't go to a barber. HAD to go for the $2.50 haircut. Waste my time...
4) If I were to get sorta rejected in any aspects of my life, this is the first one. To be truthfully, I actually don't really want it now if I think about it again...
5) EOY is like 4 weeks or less from now. I don't really know how near it is, or should I say, I don't want to know. I'm pretty sure I'm screw-ed for EOY. Didn't touch my books at ALL this holiday and I'm still rushing HW. How fail can I get? I'm screw-ed!!! But then, if I come to think of it, I still got a little bit of time... But what good will it do? Last minute effort wouldn't get me far but then again, why shouldn't I work hard? Maybe last minute work can get me slightly better result? Was back to my usual 'sofisticated' me... trying to convince myself to work hard, physco-ing myself to study. BUT, failed as usual. Working hard for EOY>? Empty promise AGAIN. Screw my self-discipline and whatever my five pillars of life is... They don't make a difference to my life anyway. They can't make a difference to my life IF I'm not willing to cooperate. Actually, I want to but then again, I can't seem to make it work... haiz. Just went to check. 3 more weekends. 3 more school weeks including this week. Can I make it in time or will I slack off as usual? To be truthful, if I put in my 100% and make good use of this 3 weeks, it can really make a significant difference but I think(predict) I will slack off. Gosh, when will I really get serious about studying... Not as if I don't want to to get serious, is that I can't! damn it. Seriously, I got to study! I'm doing pretty well in all aspects of my life except for studies. I'm not doing very badly but I can do much better than this. But when it comes to working hard section, I slack off. I got the plans, the brains, the time BUT don't have the willpower...
6) EOY is coming and I'm not even feeling the pressure. This is bad... Gosh! I'm like already prepared to do badly. How can I feel that way!! Must work hard, but, for what? Nothing seem to be able to motivate me...
7) Training 2morow!! but why am I feeling so unenthusiastic? So unlike me...
8) Happy birthdae JARRYL CHAN WEI HAN!! Wish you all the best in your life and hope that you get more handsome every second.( More handsome every year seems to be too long...) Glad to have a friend and a teammate like you=) Always going for lunch after training (not) and going out for dinner after CS training (not) and going home together after CS training (not) and going lan together (not) and going out to play (a little) and getting haircuts together! (dream on). Okay, all those above don't really mean much. We are good friends even though we don't hang out together much, it's your character and personality (not looks) that is keeping us together. Friends don't become good friends be'cose they spend alot of time together. Oya, like to thank you for being so supportive in whatever I suggest. You were never reluctant, always willing to support me=) Xie ler!
9) Lucifer dance steps so difficult to learn sia~ Wow, the SM concert is damn nice. I luv youtube.
10) Thks to all those that shown concern or even notice that I wasn't in school today and bothered to sms me to ask me whether I'm well or whatsoever. TO those that didn't, my reply: I'M doing FINE!
Time to stop. Nites
1) Falling ill really sucks, and it sucks even more when your parents think you are faking it and you're planning to pon school. Okay, maybe a little but really, why bother going to school when you know you will be spending the entire day sleeping and not paying attention in school? Why don't you let your poor son stay at home and rest? Screw~
2) Visiting the polyclinic on a monday really sucks BIG TIME. How boring can it get when you have to waiting for 2 hours before you get to leave that place again? I was so freaking bored tat I even read the world news! Korea opening new trading regulation and will be reducing the entire process of trading by 3.4 hours and $0.4 per container... This will bla bla bla. Heck! Do I look like somebody that care a heck about what is happening between china and korea (okay, maybe alittle interest in korea), is it gonna affect me or is it even relevant to my life??? Watched Mr Bean on the TV until I got bored. I mean, who actually watches Mr Bean at my age!!!
3) Got a darn haircut. Okay, it's kinda screw-ed but I'm the kind that don't really care about my hairstyle cose I think I got enough self-confidence in my looks... Okay, it's not the haircut, it's the waiting time! 1 hour? Cose it's damn-it $2.50, the whole world HAVE to go there for their haircut. Cheapo-s. YOu must be thinking then why did I go there for my haircut right? Cose my parents freaking hell left me with $4 bucks for a haircut. Can't go to a barber. HAD to go for the $2.50 haircut. Waste my time...
4) If I were to get sorta rejected in any aspects of my life, this is the first one. To be truthfully, I actually don't really want it now if I think about it again...
5) EOY is like 4 weeks or less from now. I don't really know how near it is, or should I say, I don't want to know. I'm pretty sure I'm screw-ed for EOY. Didn't touch my books at ALL this holiday and I'm still rushing HW. How fail can I get? I'm screw-ed!!! But then, if I come to think of it, I still got a little bit of time... But what good will it do? Last minute effort wouldn't get me far but then again, why shouldn't I work hard? Maybe last minute work can get me slightly better result? Was back to my usual 'sofisticated' me... trying to convince myself to work hard, physco-ing myself to study. BUT, failed as usual. Working hard for EOY>? Empty promise AGAIN. Screw my self-discipline and whatever my five pillars of life is... They don't make a difference to my life anyway. They can't make a difference to my life IF I'm not willing to cooperate. Actually, I want to but then again, I can't seem to make it work... haiz. Just went to check. 3 more weekends. 3 more school weeks including this week. Can I make it in time or will I slack off as usual? To be truthful, if I put in my 100% and make good use of this 3 weeks, it can really make a significant difference but I think(predict) I will slack off. Gosh, when will I really get serious about studying... Not as if I don't want to to get serious, is that I can't! damn it. Seriously, I got to study! I'm doing pretty well in all aspects of my life except for studies. I'm not doing very badly but I can do much better than this. But when it comes to working hard section, I slack off. I got the plans, the brains, the time BUT don't have the willpower...
6) EOY is coming and I'm not even feeling the pressure. This is bad... Gosh! I'm like already prepared to do badly. How can I feel that way!! Must work hard, but, for what? Nothing seem to be able to motivate me...
7) Training 2morow!! but why am I feeling so unenthusiastic? So unlike me...
8) Happy birthdae JARRYL CHAN WEI HAN!! Wish you all the best in your life and hope that you get more handsome every second.( More handsome every year seems to be too long...) Glad to have a friend and a teammate like you=) Always going for lunch after training (not) and going out for dinner after CS training (not) and going home together after CS training (not) and going lan together (not) and going out to play (a little) and getting haircuts together! (dream on). Okay, all those above don't really mean much. We are good friends even though we don't hang out together much, it's your character and personality (not looks) that is keeping us together. Friends don't become good friends be'cose they spend alot of time together. Oya, like to thank you for being so supportive in whatever I suggest. You were never reluctant, always willing to support me=) Xie ler!
9) Lucifer dance steps so difficult to learn sia~ Wow, the SM concert is damn nice. I luv youtube.
10) Thks to all those that shown concern or even notice that I wasn't in school today and bothered to sms me to ask me whether I'm well or whatsoever. TO those that didn't, my reply: I'M doing FINE!
Time to stop. Nites
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Grumble
I HATE people that grumble. I mean, you can grumble and blame everybody in this world other than yourself for your problems but what good does it do? Can it make the situation any better? Instead of grumbling, maybe you can spend your time trying to make the best out of the situation you are in...
Get on with life. This is the message I want to tell everybody that grumbles.
******
IF you wanna be good at something, you got to put in the hard work. Just went to see SM concert at LA. The popularity of the k-pop stars was amazing. If I were them, I will definitely feel super great to have so many fans out there.
They did not achieve all of this overnight, it through continuous hard work that got them to where they stand today. You want to attain success, gradually but eventually...
Take Hyo Yeon as an example. She is recognised for her talent in dancing. I've seen alomst all of the videos that featured her dancing. She can really dance, I swear. But check out her pre-debut and training background. Did she really achieve everything solely on her talent? Or was it through many years of hard work? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hyoyeon
The same goes to the other SNSD members or even other bands. All of the SNSD members trained for at least 5 years before their debut. 5 years... Just to train themselves up to be ready when they debut. Jessica had the longest training. 7 years and 6 months... Is their success achieve overnight? 7 years and 6 months. Not overnight.
If we want to succeed, we got to start from scratch. We have to start slow and we shall succeed eventually. Success does not come at an instant. It is through the years of hardwork you have put in. Don't blame god that you are not successful in 'whatever area'. All you can blame is yourself... for not putting in enough hardwork and effort. All the successful people in the world today stand at where they are through hard work.
******
Okay, so back to my life. Friendly against ex-NJC. 5-2. Scored 2, assist 1. Looks nice on paper but totally screwed up. Could have done much better... Regarding which aspect, I shall not discuss further.
Dinner at seoul gardens. Was pretty alright.
Caught a cold.
Watched man-u game against Everton. Score was 3-1 at 90 min. Everton scored 2 in the 2 minutes extra time. LOL. Epic.
Arsenal's game was better. 4-1.
Okay, nothing much to write about. Just hope to recover soon. Injury is getting better. Should be fit by tuesday. Screw the cold~ AH-QIU.
Get on with life. This is the message I want to tell everybody that grumbles.
******
IF you wanna be good at something, you got to put in the hard work. Just went to see SM concert at LA. The popularity of the k-pop stars was amazing. If I were them, I will definitely feel super great to have so many fans out there.
They did not achieve all of this overnight, it through continuous hard work that got them to where they stand today. You want to attain success, gradually but eventually...
Take Hyo Yeon as an example. She is recognised for her talent in dancing. I've seen alomst all of the videos that featured her dancing. She can really dance, I swear. But check out her pre-debut and training background. Did she really achieve everything solely on her talent? Or was it through many years of hard work? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hyoyeon
The same goes to the other SNSD members or even other bands. All of the SNSD members trained for at least 5 years before their debut. 5 years... Just to train themselves up to be ready when they debut. Jessica had the longest training. 7 years and 6 months... Is their success achieve overnight? 7 years and 6 months. Not overnight.
If we want to succeed, we got to start from scratch. We have to start slow and we shall succeed eventually. Success does not come at an instant. It is through the years of hardwork you have put in. Don't blame god that you are not successful in 'whatever area'. All you can blame is yourself... for not putting in enough hardwork and effort. All the successful people in the world today stand at where they are through hard work.
******
Okay, so back to my life. Friendly against ex-NJC. 5-2. Scored 2, assist 1. Looks nice on paper but totally screwed up. Could have done much better... Regarding which aspect, I shall not discuss further.
Dinner at seoul gardens. Was pretty alright.
Caught a cold.
Watched man-u game against Everton. Score was 3-1 at 90 min. Everton scored 2 in the 2 minutes extra time. LOL. Epic.
Arsenal's game was better. 4-1.
Okay, nothing much to write about. Just hope to recover soon. Injury is getting better. Should be fit by tuesday. Screw the cold~ AH-QIU.
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