It's gonna be harder this time =)
To this very special fren:
You are very different, on the inside and on the outside. People who don't know you well enough will not understand what kind of person you are truly are.
You show me how to get on with life. I always thought I was the one that had the most frustrating family issues. You shared a secret with me, one that shocked me real bad. But it thought me something thou, get on with life! No matter what happens, life still goes on...
You shown me how to care for a friend by not caring for them, instead, care for them by helping them. You shown me that I do not need to do things that people appreciate, but things that can help them.
We share so much in common, in fact, too much in common. Floorball, ambitions, family problems, taste for girls, common topics we like to share. We have unknowingly spent so much time together, so much that I can hardly remember all of them. Probably be'cose we have so much in common.
Rmb about #22, Jovlyn? =) The ultimate combination.
Rmb the girl that licked the ball? Yucks.
Rmb "papa whacking your ass" in our sms? Sounds cute.
You taught me too much. On court, off court. You are a great friend. You are my brother=) One that I will never forget for the rest of my life...
Dedicated to Mr Crenshawn Lim...
Friday, July 16, 2010
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
For a very special fren.
This is a post for a very special fren:
He is cool. He is funny. He is a friend you would never regret having.
You left me with many thoughts to ponder. You shown me how to be cool even when you are not the coolest among the group. You taught me how to smile when I'm happy and how to emo~ when I'm sad.
You always seem so cool on the outside, funny on the inside.
You showed me how to ignore people and not to get into fights. If I were you that day, I would have definitely confronted that guy and probably get into a fight. You shown me tolerance.
You shown me how to care for a friend. I always wanted to tell you this. I knew you took a long time to decide whether you wanted to give me that present on my birthdae. You had a choice, you could have kept it for yourself, but in the end you still gave it to me. You were reluctant yet you wanted to let me have it. You shown me how to truly love a friend, and to treat them selflessly. In the end, I still returned you the present. Be'cose it was the thought that counts. I'm truly grateful.
You never seem bother about how people view you. You never seem bothered about anything. You live your life carefree, hardly breaking a sweat for anything. You love to 'suan' people, but never went over the line.
You love to have fun, so much fun that the people around you could feel it too.
He is Mr. Isaac Chee Hao Zhe~
He is cool. He is funny. He is a friend you would never regret having.
You left me with many thoughts to ponder. You shown me how to be cool even when you are not the coolest among the group. You taught me how to smile when I'm happy and how to emo~ when I'm sad.
You always seem so cool on the outside, funny on the inside.
You showed me how to ignore people and not to get into fights. If I were you that day, I would have definitely confronted that guy and probably get into a fight. You shown me tolerance.
You shown me how to care for a friend. I always wanted to tell you this. I knew you took a long time to decide whether you wanted to give me that present on my birthdae. You had a choice, you could have kept it for yourself, but in the end you still gave it to me. You were reluctant yet you wanted to let me have it. You shown me how to truly love a friend, and to treat them selflessly. In the end, I still returned you the present. Be'cose it was the thought that counts. I'm truly grateful.
You never seem bother about how people view you. You never seem bothered about anything. You live your life carefree, hardly breaking a sweat for anything. You love to 'suan' people, but never went over the line.
You love to have fun, so much fun that the people around you could feel it too.
He is Mr. Isaac Chee Hao Zhe~
It was all a dream.
It was all a dream. It took me this long to realise that.
I lied to myself. I told myself over and over again " Not to give up. If there is hope, there will be miracles..." Miracles don't exist in this world.
3 times, and all 3 times I failed. That is more than enough for me. It all ends here.
Do you know how it feels when you tried so hard and yet you still fail? It's much more painful compared to you not trying as hard but still failed in the end.
Why bother so much when nobody appreciates what you have done? Why even bother...
Maybe when I go to a JC, I will go back to individual sports. It much easier that way...
I lied to myself. I told myself over and over again " Not to give up. If there is hope, there will be miracles..." Miracles don't exist in this world.
3 times, and all 3 times I failed. That is more than enough for me. It all ends here.
Do you know how it feels when you tried so hard and yet you still fail? It's much more painful compared to you not trying as hard but still failed in the end.
Why bother so much when nobody appreciates what you have done? Why even bother...
Maybe when I go to a JC, I will go back to individual sports. It much easier that way...
Monday, July 12, 2010
Lying
All of us lied. We all lie. I swear... I'm not against lying but one thing is for sure, I can't stand lying to myself...
All of us lie countless of times to ourselves everyday.
You often find you telling yourself, "O.o, now is 11.00! The lesson is gonna end 30 minutes! " Truth is, the lesson only started for 15 minutes...
You hate to know the cold hard truth that your torturing Chinese lesson has only lasted 15 for minutes and you still have 30 more minutes of hell. You know it, life is great but reality is harsh. Many things in life ain't the way we wanted it to be. The solution? We lie. We lie to people, we lie to our friends, we lie.. to ourselves unconsciously as well...
When the cold hard truth come smashing into your face, you are tempted to dodge it. And you lie to yourself.
*Not targeted at Seh Hian.
You confess to a girl. She gave you an uncertain answer. Half yes, half no. You go back home and started thinking, so yes or no? Maybe in your heart you long already knew the answer, you saw the way she shrugged away when you sat closer to her. You saw her fake smile when you greeted her. You know it, she doesn't like you. But you wanted to avoid the cold hard truth from smashing straight into your face. SO, you lie, to yourself. You tell yourself, O.o maybe she is impressed with my confession. Maybe the 50-50, might just end up the way I wanted it to be.
Ryan may be saying that he is not short, he says that he had late puberty, that's all. Truth is, right now, at this point of time, he IS short. The truth lies right in front of him but he chooses to ignore it. ( That did not happen btw, just using it as an eg. He admitted his short. Good one!)
Cowardliness. That is what I my view of people that like to avoid facing the truth. This people are just to timid to face the harsh reality. Many times in life, everything around us is great. We all lead great lives, living in comfort. So comfortable, that one day when the cold hard reality comes crushing on you, all you did was to hide under the blanket of yours.
Take it in your stride. Take the blows from the cold and harsh truth that is placed in front of you. There is no way to avoid it, you only trying to delay it.
That is great difference between being positive and lying to yourself. Being positive is being open-minded, carefree when you did not know what the result is. Lying to yourself is you trying to be positive when you already knew the answer.
You can be positive before you get your test result but once you realise that you failed, if you are still smiling and jumping around, telling yourself that the test was hard, wasn't really your fault, that's lying to yourself.
Learn to accept the inevitable cold and hard truth even if you might not like it. Nobody likes it anw.
"Only by learning to accept, then can you learn. lLearn something that you will never learn if you choose to avoid the truth."
Life is great, reality is harsh. We all know it. Now, learn to accept it.
All of us lie countless of times to ourselves everyday.
You often find you telling yourself, "O.o, now is 11.00! The lesson is gonna end 30 minutes! " Truth is, the lesson only started for 15 minutes...
You hate to know the cold hard truth that your torturing Chinese lesson has only lasted 15 for minutes and you still have 30 more minutes of hell. You know it, life is great but reality is harsh. Many things in life ain't the way we wanted it to be. The solution? We lie. We lie to people, we lie to our friends, we lie.. to ourselves unconsciously as well...
When the cold hard truth come smashing into your face, you are tempted to dodge it. And you lie to yourself.
*Not targeted at Seh Hian.
You confess to a girl. She gave you an uncertain answer. Half yes, half no. You go back home and started thinking, so yes or no? Maybe in your heart you long already knew the answer, you saw the way she shrugged away when you sat closer to her. You saw her fake smile when you greeted her. You know it, she doesn't like you. But you wanted to avoid the cold hard truth from smashing straight into your face. SO, you lie, to yourself. You tell yourself, O.o maybe she is impressed with my confession. Maybe the 50-50, might just end up the way I wanted it to be.
Ryan may be saying that he is not short, he says that he had late puberty, that's all. Truth is, right now, at this point of time, he IS short. The truth lies right in front of him but he chooses to ignore it. ( That did not happen btw, just using it as an eg. He admitted his short. Good one!)
Cowardliness. That is what I my view of people that like to avoid facing the truth. This people are just to timid to face the harsh reality. Many times in life, everything around us is great. We all lead great lives, living in comfort. So comfortable, that one day when the cold hard reality comes crushing on you, all you did was to hide under the blanket of yours.
Take it in your stride. Take the blows from the cold and harsh truth that is placed in front of you. There is no way to avoid it, you only trying to delay it.
That is great difference between being positive and lying to yourself. Being positive is being open-minded, carefree when you did not know what the result is. Lying to yourself is you trying to be positive when you already knew the answer.
You can be positive before you get your test result but once you realise that you failed, if you are still smiling and jumping around, telling yourself that the test was hard, wasn't really your fault, that's lying to yourself.
Learn to accept the inevitable cold and hard truth even if you might not like it. Nobody likes it anw.
"Only by learning to accept, then can you learn. lLearn something that you will never learn if you choose to avoid the truth."
Life is great, reality is harsh. We all know it. Now, learn to accept it.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Music~
Yo, decided to post on music this time round.
Most of you might already know, my music is K-POP. Nothing else seem to interest me. The beauty of k-pop has deeply catch my heart with all its addictive beats and lyrics. Following the Korean Wave (a surge of wide spread of korean culture over the world), many idol groups have emerge from the K-pop industry into world-known artist as it gather many fans overseas.
Current Favourite Group:
Male- SS501. My favourite boy band. Although I knew little about its member and history as compared to SNSD, it's addictive songs have caught my heart. SS501 FTW!
Female- Of course it had to be SNSD!!! Jessica FTW!!! Okay back to the topic, SNSD became my No. 1 favourite girl band not be'cose every else is supporting SNSD but be'cose SNSD has shown me what a true team spirit is. It's my motivation in leading the team and they have shown me important things of what a team should be like. Futhermore, SNSD songs are pretty nice, with serveral strong voices among them.
Below is the Top '20' for my favourite songs:
1) Love Ya- SS501. The first few time I heard this song, I thought that it was so-so only and was pretty disappointed as it was from SS501. I expected more. But after hearing it a few more times, I started to realise how beautiful this song was. The beat and tempo was intensive, the voices were powerful, the chorus was addictive. Everytime I hear this song, it brings out my emotions and gets me all fired up. It is seriously one the best songs I ever heard in k-pop.
2) Bonamana- Super Junior. Ranked at No.2, nice rythmn and beat. And, the song for the team dance. When the dance steps start to form in your mind evertime this song plays, this song certainly derserve nothing less than a 2nd place in the chart.
3) NU ABO- f(x). Firstly, the song is very unique and you often will find yourself humming the lyrics unconsciously. And, the girls are so hot~ Esp Krystal~ Cose she is Jessica's sister.
4) Oh- SNSD. This song is very nice to listen and is very unique. Obivously I can't let my beloved SNSD be anywhere below top 5~
5) CABI song- SNSD + 2pm. The lyrics are nice, with many strong voices in the song.
6) Suspicious man- Lee Jung Hyun. This song is special. It's like a mixture of J-pop and k-pop. Very nice song.
7) Bang!- After School. Typical K-pop, slightly rock but still considered as pop. Chorus is nice.
8) Run Devil Run- SNSD. Interesting beat and beautiful voices. Sica~
9) Love doesn't wait- Raina(Orange Caramel). Beautiful voice, superb chorus!
10) Gee- SNSD. A beautiful song with a perfect beat. Plus, I know the dance so it's nicer.
11) Chitty Chitty Bang Bang- Hyori. Very unique song, has the 'rock' element but still very pleasant to hear.
12) Tell Me- Wonder Girls. Tell me, Tell me, te te te te te tell me~
13) Dropping Rain- Kim Tae Woo. A male artist which isn't really famous but Nigel follows his song so I'm listening to his song as well. Very strong voice and beautiful lyrics... Yuri's boyfriend huh~
14) U R Man- SS501. Was on the top of the chart serveral weeks back~ Still very addictive and amazing tempo it has. The chorus never seem to ends.
15) Tell me your wish- SNSD. The song just never seem to be able to escape from my Top '20'. beautiful lyrics and beat I must say.
Now for the last 5,
16) Merry Go Round- Jinsung. Love the chorus and he got a good voice.
17) Crazy for you- SS501. A slightly less addictive SS5o1 song but still it is rather nice.
18) Love Story- Rain. Nice voice but I think the song is too boring maybe that is why it is at the bottom of the list.
19) Star Star Star- SNSD. Nice to listen when you are emo or want a slow song. Beautiful voices inside but often skip this song cose it is way too slow. One moment I'm listening to Bonamana, then the tempo drop like 3 times when it comes to this song?!?
20) Lupin- Kara. Maybe I heard it so many times that it doesn't appeal to me anymore. Edged out Sunny's Finally Now to secure last place.
That's my Top '20'. If you have similar taste for K-pop, might want to try out some of this songs.
* WAAA, 2morow morning assembly I will be going to give a speech to invite those China students coming immersion!!! So scared now. The thought of it makes my hand sweat~
BUT~ I don't think it will be a big fuss anyway. Pretty short speech and quickly forgotten I think. Even if I screw up nobody will care~ C'mon Darrell, have faith in your speaking ability. I thought that was one of my strength!!!
So confident in front of the team then go on stage jelly legs meh? It will be over very soon. Nothing to be afraid. Be brave Darrell! Be confident.
-One quick tip when speaking in front of a large crowd: Don't wear your glasses. This way, you can't see the negative faces your listeners are giving you and that should make you more confident=)
Darrell Hwaiting!!!!!!!!!! ARHHHHHHH!!!!! Spain gogogo!!!! Darrell also gogogo. Honestly, still sibei scared. Aeeeh!
Most of you might already know, my music is K-POP. Nothing else seem to interest me. The beauty of k-pop has deeply catch my heart with all its addictive beats and lyrics. Following the Korean Wave (a surge of wide spread of korean culture over the world), many idol groups have emerge from the K-pop industry into world-known artist as it gather many fans overseas.
Current Favourite Group:
Male- SS501. My favourite boy band. Although I knew little about its member and history as compared to SNSD, it's addictive songs have caught my heart. SS501 FTW!
Female- Of course it had to be SNSD!!! Jessica FTW!!! Okay back to the topic, SNSD became my No. 1 favourite girl band not be'cose every else is supporting SNSD but be'cose SNSD has shown me what a true team spirit is. It's my motivation in leading the team and they have shown me important things of what a team should be like. Futhermore, SNSD songs are pretty nice, with serveral strong voices among them.
Below is the Top '20' for my favourite songs:
1) Love Ya- SS501. The first few time I heard this song, I thought that it was so-so only and was pretty disappointed as it was from SS501. I expected more. But after hearing it a few more times, I started to realise how beautiful this song was. The beat and tempo was intensive, the voices were powerful, the chorus was addictive. Everytime I hear this song, it brings out my emotions and gets me all fired up. It is seriously one the best songs I ever heard in k-pop.
2) Bonamana- Super Junior. Ranked at No.2, nice rythmn and beat. And, the song for the team dance. When the dance steps start to form in your mind evertime this song plays, this song certainly derserve nothing less than a 2nd place in the chart.
3) NU ABO- f(x). Firstly, the song is very unique and you often will find yourself humming the lyrics unconsciously. And, the girls are so hot~ Esp Krystal~ Cose she is Jessica's sister.
4) Oh- SNSD. This song is very nice to listen and is very unique. Obivously I can't let my beloved SNSD be anywhere below top 5~
5) CABI song- SNSD + 2pm. The lyrics are nice, with many strong voices in the song.
6) Suspicious man- Lee Jung Hyun. This song is special. It's like a mixture of J-pop and k-pop. Very nice song.
7) Bang!- After School. Typical K-pop, slightly rock but still considered as pop. Chorus is nice.
8) Run Devil Run- SNSD. Interesting beat and beautiful voices. Sica~
9) Love doesn't wait- Raina(Orange Caramel). Beautiful voice, superb chorus!
10) Gee- SNSD. A beautiful song with a perfect beat. Plus, I know the dance so it's nicer.
11) Chitty Chitty Bang Bang- Hyori. Very unique song, has the 'rock' element but still very pleasant to hear.
12) Tell Me- Wonder Girls. Tell me, Tell me, te te te te te tell me~
13) Dropping Rain- Kim Tae Woo. A male artist which isn't really famous but Nigel follows his song so I'm listening to his song as well. Very strong voice and beautiful lyrics... Yuri's boyfriend huh~
14) U R Man- SS501. Was on the top of the chart serveral weeks back~ Still very addictive and amazing tempo it has. The chorus never seem to ends.
15) Tell me your wish- SNSD. The song just never seem to be able to escape from my Top '20'. beautiful lyrics and beat I must say.
Now for the last 5,
16) Merry Go Round- Jinsung. Love the chorus and he got a good voice.
17) Crazy for you- SS501. A slightly less addictive SS5o1 song but still it is rather nice.
18) Love Story- Rain. Nice voice but I think the song is too boring maybe that is why it is at the bottom of the list.
19) Star Star Star- SNSD. Nice to listen when you are emo or want a slow song. Beautiful voices inside but often skip this song cose it is way too slow. One moment I'm listening to Bonamana, then the tempo drop like 3 times when it comes to this song?!?
20) Lupin- Kara. Maybe I heard it so many times that it doesn't appeal to me anymore. Edged out Sunny's Finally Now to secure last place.
That's my Top '20'. If you have similar taste for K-pop, might want to try out some of this songs.
* WAAA, 2morow morning assembly I will be going to give a speech to invite those China students coming immersion!!! So scared now. The thought of it makes my hand sweat~
BUT~ I don't think it will be a big fuss anyway. Pretty short speech and quickly forgotten I think. Even if I screw up nobody will care~ C'mon Darrell, have faith in your speaking ability. I thought that was one of my strength!!!
So confident in front of the team then go on stage jelly legs meh? It will be over very soon. Nothing to be afraid. Be brave Darrell! Be confident.
-One quick tip when speaking in front of a large crowd: Don't wear your glasses. This way, you can't see the negative faces your listeners are giving you and that should make you more confident=)
Darrell Hwaiting!!!!!!!!!! ARHHHHHHH!!!!! Spain gogogo!!!! Darrell also gogogo. Honestly, still sibei scared. Aeeeh!
Confused
Right now, I feel so confused. Unsure of what I'm doing.
Seem like I got myself so tired till I can't think properly anymore. I don't know what I'm doing right now. So many things came rushing to my mind over the last few days, one thought too many.
~ Yea, had a game against Parisian yesterday and played Nhac Tre this morning. Was captain for today. As a matter of fact, I was damn surprised. But wasn't really much, just did the routine. Say a few words before the cheer and thanked the opponent at the end of the game. Easy~
I'm really damn tired right now. Can't think. I still have a bunch hw and things to attend to. Really have to get a grip on myself. And need time think over some stuffs. Life is in a mess right now.
Confused.
Unsure over my life resolution.
Unsure over my emotions.
Unsure of what I'm doing.
Unsure of what I should be doing.
Unsure about myself.
Confused.
Seem like I got myself so tired till I can't think properly anymore. I don't know what I'm doing right now. So many things came rushing to my mind over the last few days, one thought too many.
~ Yea, had a game against Parisian yesterday and played Nhac Tre this morning. Was captain for today. As a matter of fact, I was damn surprised. But wasn't really much, just did the routine. Say a few words before the cheer and thanked the opponent at the end of the game. Easy~
I'm really damn tired right now. Can't think. I still have a bunch hw and things to attend to. Really have to get a grip on myself. And need time think over some stuffs. Life is in a mess right now.
Confused.
Unsure over my life resolution.
Unsure over my emotions.
Unsure of what I'm doing.
Unsure of what I should be doing.
Unsure about myself.
Confused.
Monday, July 5, 2010
4/7/10
4/7/10 Sunday
Went to J8 to have breakfast before the few of us went to Bishan library to do the geo project.Didn't really do much, more of helping Nigel to create his new blog. www.w8ing-4u.blogspot.com
After we planned out what we wanted to do, we were each assigned various task to be completed on our own.
After we planned out what we wanted to do, we were each assigned various task to be completed on our own.
Went to lunch with Nigel and Bei er after that.
Met Cren at Khatib Mrt and travelled to Bishan.Took a ride in Joshua's dad car to clementi sports hall.
Played against Zarf today. They were damn good. 27-2. Worst defeat in my life~
Played against Zarf today. They were damn good. 27-2. Worst defeat in my life~
Recognised some of them. Some were Yokohama, quite a few were national players. They were really damn good. Really derserve to be claimed as the best team in Div 1 this year.
Learnt a lot from this game, was really happy to play against such a good team. 27-2, they derserve that, they played really well.
Went for dinner with Cren, Joshua and Ryan at KFC after the game.
Took bus back with them as well. On the bus, we had a lot of dicussion, on how each of us could have done better in the game, identifying each other's mistake, correcting them and giving suggestions.
If only the whole team can do that after every training, we will defintely be able to improve very quickly.
It is rather clear by now, those that have been consistently putting in effort, in school training and training by themselves, they are already far ahead of the rest. Really, "The amount of effort you put in decides the player you are today."
Will not be posting in the near future, no computer to use anymore~
Will not be posting in the near future, no computer to use anymore~
Darrell Hwaiting~
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