The girl I once liked...

Hi readers, if you ever metion anything about this post in front of me, I will just tell you that I don't know anything... So don't try to ask any questions regarding this topic after you read it... I may turn EMO if you persist... The only person I told was before was Isaac, due to some conditions and negiotiations...

Well, I knew her since 1 year ago, around this period, just before EOY> We got to each other at the library. She was Nz's de fren de fren. The first time I saw her, I was already attracted to her. Btw, she is korean. Yes, by now, maybe a few of you will noe her already, especially, Darius, DEREK, Wilson and Nz. LOL. It was about the time when I was about to ask her out for a date or something when many things happened. I found out she got a ex-boyfriend, thr was internal conflict between Nz, Li Nan(Nz primary school friend) ,Wilson and Derek for girls. That totally messed me up pretty badly. No offense to Nz, but he simply like all the girls out there, I decided to rest and wait...

Realising that friendship and boy-girl relationship were closely related, I decided that in order not to harm brother's relationship, I will not like her anymore. Things did not end then. Although I knew that I should not be falling for her again, I made her my JIE. At least that sort of keep us in contact. We went out as a group. Movies, ice-skating, so much fun... I will never forget, her smile, the way she speaks or the way she try to act cute... But not anymore, cose I'm gonna forget her...

After SOME incident, she distanced from us. She didn't even reply my messages. I was utterly sad, I was at least her DI...

We did not talk for a long long time since then until yesterday night. I sms-ed her. She replied for the 1st time in 7 months. I replied to her message, and I told myself if she reply to this, I will confess. But for the next 2 hours thr was nothing.... Suddenly, she told me her battery was flat and sry for late reply. I was so freaking happy she did not dao me anymore, I sms her again and told myself she is giving me a chance. But the sms was never replied again. Dun think her battery ran out again... I from then on decided to give up on her, she gave me hope and broke it again...

You might say that I do not have the balls like Nz, Wilson or even Derek to tell a girl that I like her, even thou u might get rejected... I sort of admire them for their bravery... Maybe I should have told her then but it is too late to regret now...

I decide to forget about her and move on with life. There is always another girl which might be better=) I'm so glad that I at least have the courage to write on this blog. RMB what was written in the 1st parargragh. Btw, do you think I should at least tell her that I once liked her or wat? Leave a message in Cbox. Nites.... Haiz...

EOY

Right now, I'm in the middle of the worlds' worst nightmare anybody can imagine... I'm in the middle of EOY! Basically, I was semi prepared for this exam. Still okay la.

DAy 1- English compo was a breeze, kinda aced it. Geo was still kinda ok, not bad.

Day 2- Chinese compo and letter writing was Okay, nothing much. Ok here comes, SCIENCE. Firstly, I think that they may have given us a sec 4 paper. It was freaking hard!!! All the questions were like WTF la... LoL. Hu cares..

2morow will be English compre, nothing much to learn thou. 2day went to Eugene's house was kinda slack. Played half a round of dota, sharing with Eugene and stalker. Got one damn nice, Nz chasing me, I enter the fog then he can't find me. I move and lure him till my creeps block his escape route, You Hong came and then we killed him. Damn nice, finally did one of Merlini's move.... Merlini is an EX-mym player currently in EG, he is one of the best in the world, he is also the reason why I'm playn Zeus now, his best hero=)

4 down, 3 to go. Nites.

Lend me your ear...

Me

I'm so glad that I can be posting again. Over this few days, so many things to me and I wanted so badly to share what happened to me...

Firstly, I'm still alive and kicking...

Thursday night had been a horrible night for me = [My gf la... so late still dun wan sleep... X) ]
No la, my sis just told me about things regarding my subject combination and whether to take double or triple science. In the end, I decided to take double science. Suddenly, I do not feel the urge to work hard anymore. That is why people saw me online yesterday.

I was having dinner yesterday and was reflecting on my thinking. I decided to work hard for EOY anyway.

I feel that life is short and there is serious no point mugging whole day and not enjoying life. I believe that life is suppose to be fun not a boring one. I decided to split my life in 30% Responsibility (which is studying for now) and 70% fun. That should be it=)

Today was weird(Dunno y). Breakfast then mugging. My parents were like nagging me that they have to hide the keyboard so that I would not play com (Which I found of course). Say I dun noe how to think. RIDICULOUS. I was so pissed that I stone thr for an hour. In the end after much pleading, they allowed me to go to the library to study.

851 brought me straight to AMK library. It was rather crowded. I manage to find a spot to study. I seriously studied for 2 and a half hour straight=) Suddenly, my phone played a super sad music and I feel so alone. I have nvr felt so alone before. I have always been surrounded by all my friends, suddenly I was alone. I actually felt scared... I then realise how impt friend were... Recalling those days where me, Derek, Nan Zheng, Darius and Wilson with the girls at Bishan library, made my heart drop. I packed my bag and left the library.

I went to the raiders after that... If any of you were wondering if you saw me online in the afternoon, it was me alright. I did not have time to play inhouse or whatever so I played with public. 13-4, was godlike with Axe. Fun and btw, dagon sucks. Suddenly, the loneliness overcame me again. I recalled the usual dota clan having fun and laughing, I left Raiders...

KFC was nice=) Darn, I was surrounded by people who are chatting happily. I miss all my friends. Those days at KFC, after and before lans... I left for tuition with tears almost dripping out from my eyes...

Tuition was on Gaming. Zzzz, actually gaming is harmless unless addicted. So its ok to game. Argh, last lesson, gonna miss the girls.

Mrt back home. Bought a herbal tea cose KFC is heaty=) It was drizzling. Just like my mood.

Anyway, do you think I'm handsome? Yes , No? This is very impt to me. Cose if 70% say yes, I'm gonna find a gf.

Dunno how much I wrote=) Nites...

How well you know me? NEW

Take the test below and see how when you know me... Rules changes. This time the answer will be a code not a word. GLHF...


1) What kind of girl do I like?

Q) Horny Girls
D) Innocent Girls
R) Chio Girls
X) Gentle Girls


2) What is my dream stick?

3) Silfer Z
9) Bow 28
5) Volcano
4) Doggy 33

3) What is my favourite item in dota? (Ask DotaErs)

I) Dagon
K) Bottle
S) Dagger
O) Bloodstone

4) My jacket is ___ with ____ hood.

H) White, a
D) White, no
K) Black, a
E) Balck, no

5) what do I like to do second best?

I) Look at girls
A) Play dota
D) Play floorball
G) Hangout with Friends

6) I stay at ______...

O) Kahtib block 798
H) Kahtib block 799
D) Kahtib block 796
Z) Kahtib block 797

7) Hu broke mine Excel stick?

E) Derek
A) Division 4 League
H) Dickson
O) Eugene

8) What do I hate most?

G) Prefect duty
Z) Mugging
W) To be lonely
H) All of the above


9) What is my dream (for the holidays)?

A) Slack
Z) Form a dota clan UIC.
E) Play Floorball
D) DOTA LIKE SIAO

Done. You should have 8 LETTERS, 1 number. join them together and post it on the cbox. Its a code btw=) Discussion on the cbox is allowed. Hope that your can solve it asap. Answer will be reveal once somebody solve it, except for Derek...

Don't feel the urge to study? Feeling depressed? Feeling afraid? Enlighten me...

Hi readers, I think this will be my last post until the EOY ends... Before I crawl under my blanket and start mugging the hell out of myself, I hope to help those ppl out thr who don't feel like studying to start now. So read closely...

The reason why people can't seem to get the urge to study is simple. They are not MATURE enough to look at the bigger picture. They are just not mature enough to realise what is happening around themselves. They are the people who can't seem to realise the importance of this up coming EXAM! Grow up people, this is the final lap.

IF you don't wanna work hard now, I think u are gonna regret it. For those losers that have been fooling around for the past 9 months this will be the final chance to PROVE yourself. This is the final chance to redeem yourself. Wake Up before its too late...

This is no time to be playing dota or maple. Just 1 more week to the first paper.... 2 more weeks to the freedom you long for... Can't U JUST STUDY for the next 2 weeks? Those muggers out there have started mugging few months ago and you are way behind time BUT NVRM. If you are willing to work hard, putting in your 100%, NOTHING GONNA STOP YOU. 5 more minutes of studying may just get you an extra mark in the exams. The 1 mark may just be the crucial mark that get you to triple science or for you to get an A1.

Leveling up for your stupid maple character NOW is purely DUMB. Now should be the precious time for all of us to prove ourselves and redeem ourselves. No time to fool around cose trust me, ya gonna regret it. This is for those idiots out there who are clearly not mature enuf to think for themselves. Grow up ppl. Time to look at the bigger picture...

For those ppl feeling depressed out thr, it can only be two reasons. It is either you did not mug and feel scared or you are just worried you might not do well. If you are afraid cose you didn't mug, its nvrm too late to start now, thr is still time. As long as you are willing to give in your 100%, NOTHING GONNA STOP YOU!

If you are afraid you will do badly, as long as you try your best, there is no nid to be scared. You tried. Its ok to score badly when you give in your best shot cose you noe you tried=) But trust me, if you serious put in 100%, you will get back 100% too=)

People, it still not too late to start studying now. There is still time. Do not do things that will make you regret in the future... I wasted 30 minutes writing this post just be'cose I hope that all of you can do well for EOY. Start now before its too late...

Nites...

How well do you know me? (NEW)

Hi all readers. Take the test below and see how when you know me k? Just take the letter representing the answer you think is right and join them up. Should be a word. After you are done, post it in the cbox. Answer will reveal this friday. Morderated.

1) What do I like to do when I'm free AT home?

I) Watch TV.
D) Dota!
S) Surf internet.
F) All of the above

2) How many goals did i score during the season?

O) 7
R) 9
N) 10
U) 8

3) What is my first hero that I got a triple kill?

S) Yunero
E) Axe
T) Razor
C) Viper

4) I bought ____ for Crystal Maiden the 1st time I play dota. (Easy La)

E) Gem of True Sight
D) 3 Boots
K) Desolator recipe
A) 3 Ultimate Orbs

5) My jersey No. is?

R) #37
S) #21
W) #19
O) #23

6) How many silver trophies do I have in swimming? (Me, my house, my friends)

O) 3
A) 2
T) 1
D) O

7) When did I changed my stick to Lash34?

W) After the season
A) Right before the season
Y) After qualifying for second round
C) After winning East View Sec.

8) What is my favourite and best award I got in Primary School? ( Not bragging, all true)

L) Sports Boy of the Year 2007.
I) 3rd for the Annual Australia Swimming Competition for 50m breaststroke.(National level)
S) 3rd for Cross Country.
K) Best indivual performer for my house during 2006,2007 swimming carnival.

9) I entered _____ Secondary school with ___ for my PSLE score but came to Catholic High in the end.

S) St Joseph Institution, 251
A) Anderson Secondary, 251
K) St Joseph Institution, 261
E) Anderson Secondary, 261

Done. You should have 9 LETTERS, join them together and post it on the cbox. Its a word btw=) Discussion on the cbox is allowed. Hope that your can solve it before friday. Taking it to the next level... Nites...

I choose the way I live my Life...

Ah, sry to all readers. Due to EOY(And the so many tests) I was not able to post. Yea, I'm back=)

Today began with prefect duty lessons then PE. F*cked up la. Everybody was swinging the stick like a tennis racket, so freaking painful la. Lessons then school ended at 1.30. After that, me, Isaac, Derek, Eugene, Min Hao went to J8 for lunch. On the way, we were walking in front of a bunch of CO members. We decided to Kao Bei them. We all stopped in front of them and act as if we are tying our shoelace. One of them shouted at us but then his voice went hay wire. LOL.

Min Hao ate the super spicy korean spicy noodle for GG! He actually finished it! all the way!

Isaac went home after lunch due to some issues with his mum and the rest of us went to the library. Damn crowded. We finally managed to find a spot to mug. Half hour later, stalker came and join us. Somehow, stalker and Eugene went to Mac while Min Hao, Derek and me continue mugging. Finally it was 5.20. The three of us went to the bus stop to meet Isaac to go back to school for "Sports Appreciation Night". On the way, we were all trying to speak in a vietnamese accent which we learnt from 1 of Eugene's videos. Retareded. It was like " Big Boi, I one tu tok to sum boday!"

The sports appreciation night was kinda nice. Joshua Lee was nominated as one of the best performer among the sports CCA, glory to floorball!!! Got some short clips on all the CCAs and I was video-ed scoring twice=) LOL.

Went around J8 wif Eugene to get a present for his Mum. Dinner then went home. I told the cashier that I want it a BIT spicy. In the end, it was like super spicy? Stupid..

Reflection: 2 more weekends to EOY. It is just round the corner. When I was in the shower just now( Think no where else), I recalled my wonderful primary school days.

-I was a freaking gay swimmer( I tink fastest in school ba),

-Kinda own on the track,

-Was a prefect(thou no duty is done),

-Always top 10 in class,

-Was super popular.

Not that I'm bragging or what, my secondary school life is not as successful as mine primary school life. I dun noe why too. So i decided that I CHOOSE THE WAY I LIVE MY LIFE... I decide to plan my life and live on a few values that I believe.

1) "Life is destined so make the best outta it", Be optimistic. Positi

2) "Lying complicates things while honesty simpifies things" Honesty. Got the balls to do then got the balls to face it. But can reject answering but do not lie.

3) "(Hardwork) X (Over a period of time)= (Success)" Wanna succeed then work hard.

4)"Focusing is the key to succeeding.." Stay Focused when doing things...

5) "Count to ten when angry, count to a hundred when very angry", control your emotions, dun let them control you..

Base on this 5 values, I shall choose the way I live my life..... Nites